One day an old man boarded a bus. As he was going up the steps, one of his shoes slipped off. The door closed and the bus moved off so he was unable to retrieve it. The old man calmly took off his other shoe and threw it out of the window.

A young man on the bus saw what happened, and could not help going up to the old man and asking, "I noticed what you did, sir. Why did you throw out your other shoe?"
The old man promptly replied, "So that whoever finds them will be able to use them."

The old man in the story understood a fundamental philosophy for life - do not hold on to something simply for the sake of possessing it or because you do not wish others to have it.
We lose things all the time. The loss may seem to us grievous and unjust initially, but loss only happens so that positive changes can occur in our lives. We should not always assume that losing something is bad, because if things do not shift, we'll never become better people or experience better things. That's not to say of course that we only lose "bad" things; it simply means that in order for us to mature emotionally and spiritually, and for us to contribute to the world, the interchange between loss and gain is necessary.

Like the old man in the story, we have to learn to let go. The world had decided that it was time for the old man to lose his shoe. Maybe this happened to add momentum to a series of events leading to a better pair of shoes for the old man. Maybe the search for another pair of shoes would lead the old man to a great benefactor. Maybe the world decided that someone else needed the shoes more.

Whatever the reason, we can't avoid losing things. The old man understood this. One of his shoes had gone out of his reach. The remaining shoe would not have been much help to him, but it would be a cherished gift to a homeless person desperately in need of protection from the ground.

Hoarding possessions does nothing to make us or the world better. We all have to decide constantly if some things or people have run their course in our lives or would be better off with others. We then have to muster the courage to give them away.

Found this meaningful story in LSX when surfing at work (Yah, I know this time round I should be doing closing... But just no mood... ) Inspiring... How often do we have such thoughts... I don't know abt others, I know for me, I keep holding on things that are not meant to be with me... From now, I will try to be like the old man... Throw away the past and look forward to the future..

Bo liao today... So went CP walk walk alone... Bought hamster's bedding and food... Though I don't know how long Small One can live... Still need to change his bedding and give him food until he is gone... Dont want to regret another time... Also bought a small cork-board... Trying to DIY and make it into sth that can hold my earrings... Using only different colour push pins, I manage to put all my dangling earrings, bracelets and some necklaces on the board... Lol.. Nth fantastic though.. But I like it myself very much.. Hehe... If it prove to be lasting... I may consider buying another one to put my stub earrrings... or maybe a bigger one to include everything... Haha...
Now trying to DIY stuff myself.. Hope I can slowly learn and be able to make my own accessories... Lol... I am dreaming again...

My very own accessories holder... Lol...

Got this from KT... Find it somehow meaningful and decided to share it here...

"Take this quiz:
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners
3. Name the last five winners of the miss America contenst
4. Name the ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Price
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Amard winners for best actor, actress
6. Name the last decade's worth of world series winners.

How did you do?

Here is another quiz:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel, appreciated and special
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you.

Easier?

The Lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Start appreciating them and let them know you care too."

Few days no blog le... Simply no mood to blog... Dunno what to blog also... So sianz... No mood to do anything at all... Sometimes I feel that I am happier at work than at home... At least I do laugh in office... But I dread working also... How?

Today went home alone again... Very sianz... I know I shouldnt demand too much... I know he is tired... But I really want him to send me home... Is it so difficult to send me home? Everytime I go home myself, I think of car... Thinking how good it will be if he has a car... And that he can have no excuse not to send me home... Haiz... All are in my dreams... Dunno how long I still have to wait... Sometimes I wonder... Maybe it would be better if I choose someone much older than me... At least everything is stable liao...

Very tired... Nothing in my mind... Dun wish to think anymore...

Still remember 1st May, 2003, you and him 1st stepped into our house... Everyone in the family adores both of you... Giving both of you the best we can give... Both of you are about the same size, looks almost identical... Except that you have a very little greyish-black patch on your forehead... Gradually, you grew bigger.. And we named you the Big One... We can see some difference between both of you... You are more active... You likes to play and run about... Everything is good, except that you dont really like to be clean... Bro & sis prefer u more... Me, on the other hand prefer the Small One... But I am not biased... I treat both of you fairly... Slowly, somehow everyone in the family dont have the energy to really take care of both of you.. Sis pushed the resonsibilities of cleaning up both of you to me... I took it... But I am not as enthusiatic as before... Sorry to neglect both of you sometimes...

Today, when I discovered how badly you are injured... My heart hurts... I cried... I am lost... I don't know what I can do... I flustered... I call mum for help... Together we rushed you to the nearest clinic at Jalan Kayu... It was closed today... The kind lady living upstairs offered us alternatives... Again, we rushed to Balastier... On the way, I can see that you are getting weaker and weaker... You seems that you don't have the strength to move... You just lie there... My heart wrenched... I cried again in the cab... When reached the clinic, they give you oxygen... I stayed outside waiting, still crying... After a while, I went in... See that you can at least move a little but still very weak... You tired to walk... But you struggled for some time... Finally you just lied down, moving your legs... I can see that you no longer have the strength to turn yourself over... By this time, I 've got two choices... 1st, to operate on you... 2nd, to put you to sleep... Seeing you struggling so much really pains me... I don't want you to suffer... So I made the latter decision... Slowly, when the needle was in, you slowly fall asleep.. Peacefully... Again, my tears just cant control and roll out... Within 5 mins, you are not moving at all... Eyes closed...
Sorry... It hurt me when I made this decision... But it hurts me more when I see you in pain.. You are gone now... Please forgive me for making that decision... I rather you go peacefully... Hope you won't blame me... My beloved hamster, Big One... May you rest in peace...

Big One: 1 May 2003 - 23 July 2006

Really sick of going home alone... Though the 1st time.. Still dun feel very good... Haiz... How I wish to have a bf who is rich and got license plus own a car... This is shallow thinking I know... In fact materialistic y0u can say... But that's how I feel... Will my comfort days come?

Short Sleeve Blouse (from C.O.A.X):$22
after GSS discount + member discount: $15.40

Purple 'Pearl' Long Necklace: $6

Maybelline Lash Discovery Mini-brush Mascara(Cheeky Fuschia): $12.90
Maybelline Sky High Curves Mascara(Brownish Black):$16.90
Silkygirl Pure Soft Pressed Powder (Ivory): $5.90
Maybelline Brush Blush(Sakura) :$14.90

Yeah... Finished my 1st book in 1 weeks+ time.. Haha... Nice book... Going to start on my 2nd book... Hope can learn another lesson in the new book...

~You can't buy love. You can't wish for it either~
~Whatever wishes you have, use them wisely~

Inspired by the book... Is being possesive means you love the person? I think yes, to a certain extend.. Sometimes we tend to love this person so much that we wish he/she only belongs to us... And whenever there is any intruders, our protective shield will automatically appear... When possesiveness takes over love, means disaster is here... Why do I say so? Somehow, I feel that when a party becomes possesive, another person will suffer and lose his/her freedom... Whatever he/she do, have to seek permission... Machiam like a prisoner or a dog... So sad isn't it... All the freedom will be gone... And this is where the thoughts of being single comes... Imagine... Being single... No need to report anything...Can meet new friends, take up new courses etc... Can do whateva you like... So carefree... Except that it may be alittle lonely at times... But its ok, cos got more friends now... Well... This is just the 'wish'... Not everyone has the ability to make wishes come true... Unless we have the magical heather... Haha... Oh crap...

Why do I have this weird feeling suddenly? How come the actor in the show reminds me of him? I thought I have already forgotten all abt him... His looks, his way of talking, his 眼神 suddenly all comes back... Shit... Hate this feeling... By right, I should hate him... I shouldn't recall the past.. Arrggghh...

STOP THINKING ABT THE PAST, HS!!!! THE PAST IS PAST... IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS... FOCUS ON NOW AND THE FUTURE... LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND.. YOU HEAR ME???

Started reading this book... And guess what... I am somehow addicted to it.. Lol.. Probably it is magical comedy ba... While reading this book, me somehow imagine myself to be the lead... And realize that actually in my everyday life... I have wished for alot of things without me even knowing... Now I wish I can have this ability... So that whatever I wished for, will come true... Lol...

I wish...
- to be rich...
- to have slightly bigger boobs... =X
- to have slighly smaller waist... wahaha...
- no more bad hair days for me...
- to have flawless skin so that I can put on make-up easily, or best, no need make up...
- my job is something that I am really interested with super high pay...
- for more true frens...
and more wishes...

As if sia... All my wishful thinking.... Wahaha... Think I am too engrossed in this book le.. Of cos, I know there is no free lunch in this world... Even all my wishes come true, I think I have to pay a price for that... This book sort of tells me to be contented with what I have... But, I am human afterall... I won't be satisfied de.. *ahmcio*

Today is one of the rare days that I didnt do OT... Haha... Thanks to Japan and Korea... If not for their holiday, I think I have to work OT dunno when... Recently few months so busy... Used to complain that I am too free... Now... Don't even have much time to surf forums... Lol... Well... It's good also la... At least I won't keep looking at the time on the right hand bottom of my screen...

Went to watch POC with dear... Wanted to watched yesterday, but well.. TM and CS are all full... Left only 1st 2 rows... Of cos I won't waste my $9.50 on lousy seats...Though is a monday, still the theatre is 95% full... Hehe... Lucky we booked online yesterday night... If not, I think today also full de...

Overall, I find the show nice... I give 8/10 for this show.. But don't really like the ending though... Yes... Definitely would have part 3 next year... Oh... Becos of this show, I suddenly got the urge to buy the books... Haha.. Yes... The key word is suddenly... And you know what, I have started to read books now... Just started ermmm.. 1 week ago ba... Now getting addicted to my 1st book ever since my secondary school days... Hope my passion is not a 3-min thingy...

Towel Head Band: $2.20

Hairband: $1.00
Bracelet: $1.50

I wish I can be a kid... So innocent... Nth to worry about... Everything I see kids smile, my heart melts... Lol... Played with amanda just now... Think this is the 1st time that I played with her and she so friendly towards me.. Maybe becos I give her potato chips ba... Haha... When I told her I am going home... She so disappointed.. Keep asking me to play with her... Lol... Thats the thing about kids... Having fun is their priority... So good isn't it... Unlike adults, we have worry abt money, job, family etc... For gals, still have to worry abt our looks, have to maintain our figure etc.. So many things to think about... Oh well... Maybe its just me who think alot alot...

Cool... Found a webby in yp's blog... Now I can show my photos in a slideshow... Haha... Woohoo...

How I wish I am single again... With so much freedom, I can do whateva I want... But I can only dream...

..Hehe... Uploaded my pictures during my trip to the zoo at the below link... Merge them using photoshop, so it may looks that I only took a few pictures... In fact... Quite alot... I only choose those nice ones... Some photos of the animals not included cos I don't know the name... =X

http://baby-eeyore.blogs.friendster.com/photos/zoo_trip/index.html

Friday, 07 June, 2006

Continue from the previous post... Wanted to merge together but then I think both posts got different feelings so decided to separate them...

I rather know the truth... All along I thought... Though I don't have much frens... But at least I still do have one 'best fren' that will be there for me even we seldom catch up with each other... I believe 10, 20 years down the road, she will still be my best fren... Someone whom I can really tell all my thoughts and feelings... Someone whom I can trust... Now, I guess things wont be the same anymore.... This gives me another reason not to trust people but only myself... And frens really come and go... I don't think I can find a true fren now... Whether is true fren or not, time will tell... This is very true... I guess now my only frens are frens that I know online... I guess at least they will be there for me when I need someone to talk to...

Friday, 07 June, 2006

Spent the previous night in dear's house and woke up quite late... Played with dao dao and around afternoon we go meet ah le and his gf, JJ... The 3 of us accompany JJ to orchard for interview at FEP... As usual lor... We just walked around... While waiting for JJ, ah le suddenly ask me whether we wanna sing KTV or not... Me and my dear dont really want... Cos we already overspent this mth le... But we sort of fu yan thru and along the way, we both like keep thinking of ways to avoid... Haha... Finally used we need to go celebrate my bro's birthday... Actually we quite guilty also... We also dont like to see the disappointment in his face... But bo bian... Cos we broke liao... Already dry... If dear is working, then probably we wont reject... Cos double income wont be so bad... Hope our lives would be better after dear ORD...

Thursday, 06 June, 2006

Heehee.. Took 2 days leave to rest myself... Really long weekend sia... As usual, when I am on leave, I sure wake up earlier than my normal days.. Get myself prepared and when I was abt to go, it started to rain... Rain so heavily that I was abit disappointing... Lucky wait for a while, the rains get smaller and I went to AMK to meet dear for breakfast... When we are having breakfast, it reminds me of the times during our attachment at NCS MOE... We met everyday to have breakfast together... Oh.. How sweet.. Haha...

When reached the zoo, both of us quite excited..Bought tickets and umbrealla and began exploring... Lucky we didnt buy the zoo umbrella in Cheers... We bought one umbrella in the DFS instead... Much more cheaper sia... Lol... Probably it was drizzling and quite early... 1st few stops cant see any animals ard.. Guess the animals still sleeping that time ba... Slowly explore and things started to get interesting... Lol... Feel that the zoo has changed quite alot... Remember when I was very young.. I cant see the animals so clearly... Either see them thru glass panels or thru some bushes... This time really wowed me... Can see the animals quite clearly and really fascinated by the "closeness" and the animals show... Haha... Feel that machiam I am still a little gal in school... Haha.. And I realize that I am the only one wearing heels in the Zoo... Lol... But I think I quite good in walking with heels.. Lol.. Walked alot in the zoo... Up and down the slope... Stairs climbing etc.. Kinda tiring though but enjoyable...

After the trip, we went Bishan to take our monthly neoprint... Hehe... This time we took the cute version.. Lol... Kinda fun eh... This time me not really statisfied leh... Haha... Immediately after the neoprint, dear suggest we go watched Superman... And 1st time so rush.... The show starts at 6pm and we bought tickets on 5.45pm... haha... Chop chop bought nachos and drink and off we go...

Who says Superman not nice? I find it not bad leh.. Though of cos there arent much special effects in the show... Thats the trait of Superman ma... Fly here and there... One thing I noticed abt Superman is that he is quite a attention seeker... Haha... Do you realize that most of the super heros like Batman, Siperman, Robin Hood, Catwoman, Wonderwoman etc dont really show their faces when saving pple... They prefer to masked their face... Except for Superman... Abit haolian eh.. Haha... =X... No offence to Superman fans... Lol... And one thing abt Superman is his charisma...Especially the eyes... Oh... Machiam can take my soul away.. Wahaha... Think I was too engrossed by him that I was startled a few times in the movie... Machiam I was watching a horror movie... Haha... Dear got frightened by me a few times... *ahmcio*...

Spent the night at dear's house and woo... so many people... All his cousins dunno why come out from msia... 1st time see his hse so crowded sia... Wanted to sleep early also cannot... Lol...

Super shag these few days... Yesterday broke my own record... Work until 9.30pm... OT for 4hrs+... And 1st time took cab home and can claim... Today OT 2 hrs as well... Tired... Dunno why everytime when I decided to take leave, alot of things need to do... Last minute so many shipments.. Same vessel, same supplier but split into different qty for different customer... See until I blur liao...

Finally... Hehe... Took 2 days leave... Hope everything goes well... Cant wait to go to the zoo... Woohoo... Its been many donkey years since I last went... And yeah... Can meet mh... Always dont have the chance to meet her... Either she busy or I busy, she last minute got duty and me last minute got sth on... Hope can meet her this Friday smoothly... Hehe...

Dear bought me another eeyore again... Lol... And its a speaker in fact... So cute... But dear no money liao still buy for me... Feel abit xin tong for him... Tested the speaker... OMG... So soft... haha... Cant even hear a sound unless I put it close to my ears... Lol... Nvm la.. As long its eeyore... I like... Lol..

baby eeyore speaker:$12.95

dear paid for me.. =)

Removed some forum links in my blog... Find that no use linking them when I am not active in those forums... Even online, also machiam in my own world... Removed the song inside my blog as well... Not sure whether other people can hear the song or not... I cant hear it myself.. So might as well removed it...

Today just not my day... Dunno what shit I've stepped... Everything just went wrong... My makeup fades extremely fast today... Mascara keep smudging... My lips cracked... Bad hair day.. And worse... Waited cab for 45mins!!! Almost every cab I hailed is either 'ON CALL' or 'HIRED'... Super pek chek that I cried... Arrgghh... Useless me... Cry over such things... Loser..

So worry dear will say my hair not nice also... Lucky he din.. Only comment its short nia... Dunno he is comforting me, dun wan me to think too much or he really meant it... Somehow after meeting dear... I feel better...

Dear bought me 天珠 bracelet from his mum stall.. Today 1st day selling... So we go 捧场... Dear told me I will like it de... Yes.. I really like it.. Very nice... But very expensive... $70... My god.. nvr expect it is so expensive... There is a sticker with description "Ruticated Quartz"... Wonder this is the name for 天珠 or the name for this particular bracelet... Hmm... Bought a pair of shoes also.. hehe...

Thanks dear... Really touched when you bought this bracelet for me... This makes feel me guilty for not treating you nice nice... And also hurt me when you say my guilty-ness only for a while... You know me too well le... But then... I will try to treat you better de... =D

天珠 bracelet:$70

dear bought for me at his mum's stall...

Its power: Incur the Wealth (招财); Change of Luck (转运) [change for the better of cos =D]; Evades Sickness (避病气)

white pumps with flowers: $17

bought outside a medical stall.. only managed to bargain $2.90 off...