Still remember 1st May, 2003, you and him 1st stepped into our house... Everyone in the family adores both of you... Giving both of you the best we can give... Both of you are about the same size, looks almost identical... Except that you have a very little greyish-black patch on your forehead... Gradually, you grew bigger.. And we named you the Big One... We can see some difference between both of you... You are more active... You likes to play and run about... Everything is good, except that you dont really like to be clean... Bro & sis prefer u more... Me, on the other hand prefer the Small One... But I am not biased... I treat both of you fairly... Slowly, somehow everyone in the family dont have the energy to really take care of both of you.. Sis pushed the resonsibilities of cleaning up both of you to me... I took it... But I am not as enthusiatic as before... Sorry to neglect both of you sometimes...
Today, when I discovered how badly you are injured... My heart hurts... I cried... I am lost... I don't know what I can do... I flustered... I call mum for help... Together we rushed you to the nearest clinic at Jalan Kayu... It was closed today... The kind lady living upstairs offered us alternatives... Again, we rushed to Balastier... On the way, I can see that you are getting weaker and weaker... You seems that you don't have the strength to move... You just lie there... My heart wrenched... I cried again in the cab... When reached the clinic, they give you oxygen... I stayed outside waiting, still crying... After a while, I went in... See that you can at least move a little but still very weak... You tired to walk... But you struggled for some time... Finally you just lied down, moving your legs... I can see that you no longer have the strength to turn yourself over... By this time, I 've got two choices... 1st, to operate on you... 2nd, to put you to sleep... Seeing you struggling so much really pains me... I don't want you to suffer... So I made the latter decision... Slowly, when the needle was in, you slowly fall asleep.. Peacefully... Again, my tears just cant control and roll out... Within 5 mins, you are not moving at all... Eyes closed...
Sorry... It hurt me when I made this decision... But it hurts me more when I see you in pain.. You are gone now... Please forgive me for making that decision... I rather you go peacefully... Hope you won't blame me... My beloved hamster, Big One... May you rest in peace...
Big One: 1 May 2003 - 23 July 2006


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