Other than birthdays and chinese new year... This can be considered one of the 1st gatherings that we had... Grandma requested everyone to be present today at her house at 12 noon... Everyone must go... Most imptly... She wants to see all her children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren...

Everyone reached at the abt the same time... All aunties, uncles, cousins and nieces.. Almost everyone is present... A mingling session for us... To know what everyone is doing etc... After everyone arrived... Grandma make a small speech... A speech that made most of us crying away... I wanted to control... But I couldn't... The tears just flow out naturally... Then, she sort of give some money to everyone grandchildren and great-grandchildren... A few of us dont really wish to take this money... But she insisted... It was really a sad gathering... As if she knew sth would happen to her one day... Can really feel my heart twitching at that time... After everyone got their share... Can see she is happier... Seems that she has fulfilled whateva she wanna do... And had a mind of peace... Hope she can live to a ripe old age... Good health always ah ma...

The scandal of Tammy is really spreading way too fast le... Now even forums and websites in US, UK, Malaysia and China are reporting about this also... And this Tammy scandal has already become the top search in most search engines... Why? Cos everyone is searching for the video clips... The demand for it is getting higher and higher... And the worst thing is webbies are selling merchandise related to this scandal... T-Shirts, bags, caps, badges, cups etc... All printed with crude wordings... Terrible... Its unfair to only focus on Tammy... What abt her bf? What abt the main distributor of the clips? Think this is too much for a 17 year old gal to take it le... She needs to get on with her life de... With all these... I think she's really gonna have a hard time... Maybe we should stop talking abt this and give her some breathing space... Maybe we should sympathize with her... Afterall, she is just a little gal... Hmm.. sounds I am so old right... Hope this will come to an end soon...

Another boring day at work...Hope I will have something to do in the afternoon... Found this yesterday when surfing keeptouch... So decided to share it here... Do you still remember your childhood days? My childhood memories... I only can remember vaguely... Alot of things I have forgotten le.... Or rather I choose to forget... Anyway... Those were the days...

1. You grew up watching He-man, Transformers, Silver hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles and Smurfs too.

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug. The teachers said you must brush each side10 times too.

3. You know what's Bin(1) Fen(1) Ba (1) San(1) is all about. (seriously i dunno what's that...)

4. You know what SBC stands for.

5. You were there when the first chinese serial, the Awakening was shown on TV. (got meh? no 印象 leh)

6.Internet? What the hell is that? So you thought a decade or more ago.

7. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

8. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red.! The big red bell gives a loud BEEEP! when pressed.There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole on the ticket. (my time dun have la.. think my time already progress le.. but yeah... buses are non-airconditioned... last time we have the transitlink cards [older pple call it bus cards] instead of ezlink now.. )

9. Your favourite actor and actress is Huang Wenyong and Xiangyun. Next is Lee Nanxing and Zoe Tay and the Aiyoyo woman. (yeah...)

10. You've probably read Young Generation magazine. You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

11. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery. (dun remember leh... )

12. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50. (my time movie tickets already increased to $5/$6 liao.. but still cheap... unlike now... cheapest $7.00 and $9.50 on weekends... *faint*)

13. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

14. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

15. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka(20 cents per pack) and Ding Dang(50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring. (I only remembers Ding Dang and the ring pop nia.. )

16. You watched TV2(also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

17. All that you know about Cantonese is from the Hong Kong serials you watched on TV2.

18. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read, even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.

19. Civics and Moral Education was "Hao3 Gong1 Min2".

20. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

21. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

22. Catching was the IN thing and twist the magic word.

23. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

24. CDIS was your best friend.

25. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixilated characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

26. Water bottles were slung around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

27. Boys loved to play soccer with small tennis balls in the basketball court or play something that uses tennis ball to hit other players known as "HUM TAM BOLA" during recess /after school. (Heard before... But use tennis balls? Ouch...)

28. Hopscotch, five stones, chapteh and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...

29. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives.

30. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks, even Mr Wally, especially a bunny on your English Pets Coursebook.

31. You did stupid exercises like seal crawl and frog jumps.

32. Every children's day and national day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with Happy National Day 1994'.

33. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.

34. Chinese teachers were always old, boring and damn fierce looking.

35. Your form teacher taught you maths, science and english.

36. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.

37. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

38. Famous Chinese singers were only Jacky Cheung, Andy Lau, Aaron Kwok and Leon Lai.

39. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

40. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

41. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

42. During class gatherings, parents always tag along in case someone gets lost at Orchard Road.

43. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

44. Handkerchiefs were a must for both genders.

45. Collecting notebooks and all kinds of stationery was a popular thing.

46. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch, Friends like you, hard to forget".

47. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk some more, I write your name ah!".

48. There were at least 40 people in one class.

49. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.

50. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

Seeing all these, I suddenly remembered my bookworm books... Oh.. Still remember bookworm series can be considered the expensive range of books... I was a member of bookworm club as well... And I've got a whole series of them... Spent about 1k that time to collect the whole series and got 2 wooden shelves for free... These bookworms are extinct now... But... someone actually threw them away... Damn it... and I only got a "Sorry, my father threw them away while spring cleaning..." BULLSHIT... All in the past le... But who can I blame... I only can blame myself for being so stupid... I shouldnt have lend him the whole series... And I should have insist to take them all back when the 'incident' happen... Worst, I was so stupid not to claim any money from him after I knew my books were thrown away... Dunno why I din ask him to pay... Maybe I dont want money issues to affect the 'friendship' that time... Shit... Though money cannot buy back the books... at least I will get back the money.... Anyway everything too late now... If time can be turned back the time, I confirm will get back all my money... Including those that he owe me... All I can blame is myself... Blame it on my stupidity... Now, I can only let the past be past... Hopefully I can forget abt this bookworm thing one day...

Anyway... Back to now... recently got the the big hoo-haa abt the contact lens solution, Renu... Lucky I have changed to Solo Care a few months ago... If not I think I have the high possibility of getting fungus infection if I still continue using Renu(cos my eyes constantly tio virus infections when I was using Renu... heng doctor say not serious... ) Of cos, without proper care, even use other brands of solution also will tio infection de... So contact lens wearer, please take care of your own eyes...

Another big hoo-haa is the NYP scandal abt this gal, Tammy... Dunno I should pity her or to laugh at her stupidity... There are lots of questions asked why did she not save the video in other types of media? or She really want to seek attention? Poor gal... Only 17 nia... And yet have to go thru so much torments emotionally... The thing I dun understand... Why media focus so much on the victims rather than the one who stole the video, put in on net and spread it around? I think the person who start the spreading should be punished... Stealing and distributing porn is wrong and illegal in our country... There is nth wrong for Tammy to engage in sexual activitives with her bf when she has reached the legal age of 16 ... Well... only one word for Tammy... Suay... And one word for one spreading the video.. Vicious... What is she/he thinking sia? Even take revenge also no need like that... Dunno how Tammy is going to face the world now.. Hope people will forget abt this incident over the time...

The world is getting uglier and uglier...

Went walk walk with dear yesterday at town... Bought a Motorola cordless phone from Best Denki... $99.. lucky I got $150 Best Denki voucher... If not really 舍不得 to buy sia... Then bought a super big box $12.90 at Precious Thots... And also a very cute bag for $14.90 at the same shop... Though the bag is a bit expensive... But I like it very much... Cos it is too cute le... Somemore just nice fit the tube dress I wore yesterday... Lol...

Motorola cordless phone from Best Denki... Nice big box from Precious Thots...Cute bag from Precious Thots as well...

Everything was sweet and nice until on our back... Anyway to cut things short, I was wondering what exactly do guys want? Yes. I admit that I din really know what he wants from me as a gift... This is ridiculous I know... Cos being with him for 2 years and yet I dont know what he wants... I am really upset from the way he question me... I am also upset with myself for not being sensitive towards him... Guys are borned more sensitive than gals... Guys can decipher from gals' actions and words to know what we gals like... But we gals on the other hand... Well... maybe only me... I dont really know what guys really want if they didnt tell me anything.... I am always in trance... Maybe that's why I didnt catch his hint when he likes certain things... I know I am not a good gf... I tried to get the best things for him... And I know he dont really like the gifts that I bought him for anniversary and v-day... If he likes them, he wont question me already... Its myself to blame... I should have been more sensitive... maybe I am not suitable to be in a r/s afterall...

Think I am facing my mid-life crisis even though I am only 21... Haiz... And think I am going to be be in another depression soon... I am lost... I dunno what I really want in life... I dunno what I want to achieve at work... And the worst thing is I am not sure whether I am still interested in the things that I used to be interested in... Where will my life path be? What will I become in my career for the next 5 years or even 10 years? So many questions in my head...

Me now totally dun have the heart to do anything at all... Nothing seems to interest me anymore... Even my favourite eeyore... I dont really feel happy when I see stuffs about eeyore le... Why I am like that now? Can someone please tell me? I dont wan to job hop and yet I dont want to stay in a company for too long... So what should I do? I dont want to achieve nothing 5-10 years down the road... I want at least be somebody or at least have some achievements that I can be proud of... But what I can do? Where should I start to discover my inner me? How can I have my confidence? How do I be confident? Can someone please teach me?

Haiz....Too many questions le... Maybe I am too paranoid about the future le... Maybe I should take things slowly... But taking too slowly, I will be left behind... Maybe going back to study is another choice for me... Then again, another question... I dont even know what I am interested at, so what can I study? I dont want waste another 3-4years studying something that I am not interested in again... Maybe... Maybe... Maybe...

ps: my dear gf... please take care of yourself ok... drink more water worz... hope you are feeling better now... and to all people who fall sick le... please take care of yourselves as well... the weather is getting bad le... take care my frens...

情人节快乐！！！祝有情人忠诚眷属。。。

Today is the 3rd v-day that both my dear and me celebrate together in our 2years... Time flies... So fast sia... Haha... Though v-day is just a normal day... Still the excitement of receiving flowers is there... Lol... Not bad... This year flower from my dear is slightly bigger than last yr... Haha... Hmm... But dunno y he likes to give similar pattern as last yr... This yr also ferrero rocher with flowers, except that this yr is with white lilies (i think looks more like white roses), last yr is with blue roses... My dear told me he asked for lilies... But the more I look at it... The more it looks white roses to me... Maybe the florist conned him sia... Lol... Anyway, nvm la... Its still flowers... And this is what I will not receive everyday de... Ya... I took pictures of the flowers and 顺便 took pictures of the flowers the previous 2 v-days... Can see the difference? Lol...

1st v-day(14 Feb 2004): bouquet of ferrero rocher. 2nd v-day(14 Feb 2005): bouquet of ferrero rocher and blue roses. In terms of size, this is only about half of the 1st... Lol... 3rd v-day(14 Feb 2006): bouquet of ferrero rocher with lilies(or rather white roses)... Bigger than the 2nd one... Hehe...

Kinda enjoyed myself today... Simple dinner at Cineleisure Pasta Mania, saw my poly classmate(Eileen and her special someone... Hehe... ) and followed by 3½ hours of KTV... Sang till I lost my voice... Dear send me home and we had fun disturbing each other... Haha... I am really very tired le cos only slept for abt 4hrs... (Becos I sacrifice my sleep to accompany my sis to 24hr clinic at Hougang and then to TTSH... Tell this incident maybe next post ba...)... But somehow dunno y got the strength to disturb dear.. And after the playing... I feel more shag... We exchanged our presents at my void deck... Think that's about it... Super duper tired now... And I realized that I still have my contact lens on... Gosh.. No wonder my eyes so dry... Gonna sign off le... Good nitez...

元宵节快乐 everyone... In case you dunno... Today also can be considered the lunar valentine's day... For those who are single and unattached... Hope you can find your another half soon... For those who are attached or married.. Hope you be lasting with your another half... But well... This only applies to good people... For those jerks, bastards, bitches, mcps... I think these pple better stay single all their lives so that they wont hurt the innocence... Enough abt that... So fast... Last day of cny le... Seems like it was only yesterday when cny starts sia... And its already almost half of the month liao... Time really flies sia...

My dear finally recover from his sickness liao... Yeah... see him can disturb me I feel so happy... Lol... He ok le.. But my turn now.... Haha.. Though my sickness not really serious... Still feel abit uncomfortable... Think I am too heaty le... Cos my ulcers getting bigger and bigger.. And this time... I got 2 ulcers, one abt the size of 1/4 of a coin, another like the chinese fullstop.... Worst... both are at the same place... So painful... Had difficultity eating also... Sianz... Spray alot of watermelon frost also no use sia... If still like that for the whole of this week... I will go see doctor le...

Went bbq yesterday with my dear... This was organized by another dept in the company... Initially the purpose is to go another colleague hse to pai nian... But dunno y changed to celebrate the birthday of their GM at the GM's hse... Well... anyway... Me and my dear did enjoy ourselves... especially in guessing the riddle... Hahaha... Hmm... Guess I am not IQ zero afterall... Lol... Eat and eat and drank some beer and wine... We dun really want to drink de.. But one manager keep pouring red wine in our cups... Haha... So bo bian lorz... In the end the manager and my another colleague got drunk... Lucky me control myself... If not I also will get drunk... Lol... The feeling of being drunk is so terrible... Me experienced once b4...When I still in my teens... Oh teens... Already left me so long le... Haha... And the worst part is the hangover next morning... Arrgghh... Haha...

在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福。
在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤。
在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐。
在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一阵叹息。

其实有些事情，真的是没得到的时候，最珍贵美丽。
你是否分得清楚谁是你最爱的人，谁是最爱你的人，谁是你要共度一生的人。
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，
她（他）爱你的时候是真的爱你， 可是她（他）不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
她（他）爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，她（他）不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。

聪明的人喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，却失去了自己的心.........
傻气的人喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，却得到了别人的心.........

Found this while surfing in keeptouch... Find it quite true... So decided to share it here... How many of us can actually find the right person at the right time the 1st time? Well... If you manage to... Congrats... If you are still finding the right person... Don't despair... Keep on finding and dun give up hopes... Good luckz...

Haiz... So worried for my dear... His fever and cough more jialat than yesterday... His highest temperature is 39.3 degrees when he is in camp... God... Almost 40 liao... And his stupid camp, there is no MOs around... And ask him to wait till 7pm then they dunno attend to him or drive him out... Stupid right? How can ask a person who is having high fever with a temperature of 39.3 to wait till so long? What happen if my dear cannot tahan and faint? Who is going to be responsible? Stupid... Lucky my dear not as stupid as them, din wait till 7pm... Jialat... My dear feels so hot... Hope he can be well after eating medicine and hope he can be well enough to attend sat's bbq.... Haiz...

Been updating my photos in the friendster for the whole day le... Sickening... Only till now then I can upload all my photos sucessfully... Friendster really laggy and buggy sia... Though it has improved some features... But still it is buggy...

Haiz... my dear sick so jialat sia... 忽冷忽热... and keep coughing... Haiz... so worried for him... Gave him eat panadol le... Still the same... Give him eat chinese cough medicine also no use.. How sia... Hope he will be fine sia...

Tml gonna start work le... A bit sianz leh... But bo bian... I have to work... Somemore also quite paiseh for jocelyn to cover my work... Think I cannot take so many days leave le... If continue taking, I wont have enough for my overseas trip le... Hmm... This yr dunno go where sia... Dunno my dear wanna go to which country... Anyway its still long... I think too far liao... Haha..

Sorry ar... This post is just craps... Wanted to write more things leh... But hor... Dunno what to write also... Gonna sign off le...

Celebrated our 2 years anniversary yesterday... Though not as fun and exciting as the 1yr(with the dolphins and the horse riding at sentosa)... I am contented already... 1st time in my life, my dear fetch me at my hse with a 'chauffer'... Haha... But women nature... I let him waited for about 10 mins cos I need to finish up my make-up... Lol... Then, we went to changi chalet for check in... The chalet was... Wow... Like a 2-storey bunglow sia... Cool man... Haha... How I wish my own hse would be as big as the chalet...

After settling down, I followed my dear wherever he went... Cos I have no idea at all what he has planned (But I still can guess his plans after he told me we are going to Somerset... Wahaha)... Then, we had our late lunch + early dinner at Jack's Place... This is also the 1st time that we both eat at Jack's Place... The ambience is nice... Dim lights... Romantic music... And the best thing is there is not many people there... Maybe because its on a monday afternoon (4pm+) ba... Gosh... The food at Jack's Place really expensive sia... Well... I admit I am a moutain tortoise... I'm so afraid that my dear would spent alot and I keep looking at the price... But my dear says jus order what I wanna eat... No need to bother about the price... I did... But still feel pinched for him...

Then, we rush to watch movie 'Fun With Dick & Jane'... A comedy as usual when the main actor is Jim Carrey... Some scenes are quite hilarious... I especially like the part when Jim Carrey and his wife masked themselves in black robbing one of the guy that laughed at him before... Making stupid movements... Wahaha... Everyone in the cinema laugh till pengz sia... Lol... The show is not bad la... I find that other than a comedy itself... This show also let me the realize the power of love... I dunno whether for those who had seen this movie realize this or not... For me, I did... Throughout the whole show... both Dick and Jane supported each other thru thick and thins... Both still love each other even though their face was out of shape... (You will know what I mean when you have watched the show...) Both did not have the intention of giving up each other at all... I guess in real life... There is seldom such a case... Cos nowadays, feelings, love are so fragile... One moment loving, the other moment break up liao... Anyway, after the movie, my cousin(lin) 'found' me... Haha... Such a coincidence... She was watching the same show sitting a few rows behind me somemore... Lol...

After the movie, my dear suddenly wanna change of plan (he intended to go KTV de but sad, I have guessed it... Wahaha...) to go Mt. Faber... I have no objections as well... Cos Mt. Faber is definitely cheaper than going KTV... Like that can help my dear save money also... Then, we took cab to Mt. Faber... This is also our 1st time there... Always hear liwen say Mt. Faber very nice... Can see the whole of Singapore... Finally... yesterday we have seen it... Awesome... It was really a beautiful scene... At the top... You can see city lights and many buildings... Walked further down... Wow... You can even see the roads... With cars movings... Really nice sia... And the best part is... At Mt. Faber, it is very cooling and quite quiet also... Wahaha... Its a good place for couples to hang out... Lol...

Our final destination is back at the chalet... Nth much at the chalet though... except it can be quite eerie when walking from the holiday flat to the chalet... Lucky my dear is beside me... If not I dun think I got the courage to walk the pathway by myself... Thanks dear... For giving me such a wonderful anniversary... Though it is nothing fantastic... Stilll I am happy le... Hehe... But my poor dear falls sick this morning, and have to book in to camp tonight le... Now sleeping on my bed.. See him sleep till so soundly, I also feel kinda slpy sia.. *Yawn*.... Think the word 'slpy' is cursed sia... Haha...

Happy 22nd Birthday Minghua... Whether you are reading my blog or not... Still wanna wish you happy birthday... And may you get your pink IC soon.. Lol..

Went shopping alone today... It's been reallly long time since I went shopping alone sia... Though quite lonely to shop alone... But I kinda enjoyed it sia... Haha... Actually its not ke lian to shop alone at all... Cos own time own target... Need not scare will bore other pple or scare other pple have to wait for you... Hehe... Went to shop for my dear's anni and v-day present... Nvr expect will exceed our budget sia... Lol... But nvr la... Anni present once a year only ma... Wahaha... One thing I'm sad is that I cannot find my 1st choice present for my dear... Seems that everywhere also no stock sia... Haiz... Shld have order it long time ago sia... Dear... Hope you will like the present sia... Hehe...

Actually wanted to write some things that I already thought of this afternoon... But... I dont want to be reminded of the past anymore... Because of the past... I dont feel happy everytime whenever some things linked to it... And it would be very very unfair to my dear if I keep thinking of the past... It's really a great relief for me to be able to leave the past behind me... Well... that's enough abt the past... The future is more important for me... Lol... I am sure that if... i say if... if one day history repeats... I think I can take it more easily... Cos I got experience liao... Wahaha... *touchwood*... Of cos, I hope this wont happen... Dear hor?

Think my dear also not free la... Cos he is busy gambling now... So busy that he already intended to forfeit our talking time le... Humph... Shouldnt have bought him presents... Wahaha...

12.26am now... I am super tired... But... I just cant sleep... Why??? My eyes so heavy... What am I thinking? Seems to have many many things in my head... The past... Now... And the future... Keep hoping that time can really pass very fast... Best is I got amnesia... Like that I can forget about the sad things that happened to me... Though some things are already long long ago... still... I can remember bits and pieces of it... It's not that I have not get over them... Those memories just re-appeared in my mind... Maybe some part of me subconsciously is still living in the past ba... Will they ever walk out and advanced to the future??? I dunno...

4 more days to my dear and me 2 years le... Did I mentioned before in my previous post? I think I did... Anyway... 4 more days... No... Think should be 3 more days ba... And the worst is my dear's present is out of stock... Tml closing period... Dunno what time I will finish also... So scare no time to buy sia... If really cannot find... Think I choose another gift le... Also got v-day... Though this day is nth special (V-day can be anyday as long a couple is happy)... I still hope can get a nice gift for my dear... Hmmm... Maybe can get him a very sexy t-string that only covers... Wahaha... Later his mum faint first sia... Lol... Eh... better dun leak too much things here... Else my dear can guess my present for him le... Dear... I not stupid hor... Wahaha... Better catch some sleep sia... If not, I really look more and more like a living corpse liao... ~tata~