Dunno what I am thinking... I went to cut my hair again... I think this is the 1st time that I really regret... Haiz... This time really too short... Can't blame Paul... I shld have say trim instead of cut... Dunno what the heck was in my mind when I decided to cut... Really sad... I think if my boobs were smaller... Probably I can be a butch le... Haiz... I think my hair now shorter than my bro... Really feel like crying... Yes I know... Hair will grow... But I just cant imagine how bad the comments will be... My mei say not nice... Die liao... Wanted to stay at home totally for a few weeks... No courage to meet people le... I need a hole to hide now... Haiz...

Took mc today... Dun intend to take de.. But body cannot tahan liao... Hate this feeling... I think I spent most of my time on bed sleeping... Sleep until whole body ache sia... Feels super weak... Still no appetite.. Sianz leh.. Now give me abalone and shark fins I also find it not nice liao... Lol... Almost fainted along the way to see doctor... Lucky my mei got accompany me.. If not I think sure fainted liao... Walked a few steps than got double vision and almost blacked out... My mei scared out of wits sia... Keep talking to me and holding me... Finally reached the clinic... But bloody hell, I waited for 1.5hrs before my turn... I already feel better when its my turn... =.='''
Doctor diagnosed to be gastric flu... Dunno what the hell is that also... Haha...

Oh ya... Happy Birthday Zhihao!!! See, I so good eh.. Sick but still remember your birthday!!! Lol... 22 years old liao... Haha... Dont worry la... 22 years old nia... Not old... For guys ok de.. Hope you enjoyed your birthday... Take care ya... Waiting for you to organize another gathering... =X

Falling sick le... Aching all over.. Feeling cold in office when everyone finds it hot today... Feeling nausea... Feeling weak... Throat super dry... Cold outside warm inside... Arrgghh.. Hate this feeling... I dont wan to take mc this week... I want take next week =X...

Think really not enough sleep le... Proabably is the after-effect of walking (purely walking... no take trains/bus/taxis) from FEP to Bugis, and then to Suntec on Saturday... Super shag... ZZZzzz... Or I most probably got the virus from my family members... They jus recovered and I tio liao... Shit.. Must pass to other people then I ok liao... Wahaha... Evil me..

Kinda pissed off with this particular forum... I shouldnt go back at all... Dont understand why they can survive till now... Idiotic...

Dear told me about one plan that can allow us to earn money... Woo hoo... At 1st, I don't really think can... But I still go ahead... I trust dear and GF... Just started yesterday... And I can feel money coming in... Lol.. Clever dear... Though we don't earn really much... But I believe in 积少成多... So far so good... Already earned some money liao... Hope more will come in the future... Looking forward to the day where I no need to 吃苦, and can really spend my money without having second thoughts... Ganbatte!!!

Arrggh... Stupid shit... I lost money again... I have to work more OT now... Super low moral le... Shouldn't have bet in the 1st place... I should have know myself... I don't like to lose... I like to win... I don't like to be a loser... Hmm... No one like to be loser also... Think I am crazy liao... Crazy over $14.50... Sheezh...

Dear.. I'm broke now... I don't care... Since you win so much... You can't escape... I want you to treat me eat Pariss and want lots of ferrero rocher... I don't care... *bleh*

Oh ya... Happy Birthday to dear's sis, Weilin... Another year to adulthood le... Best wishes to you.. Special day this year ya... =P Hope you can find your prince charming soon...

Today.. 20/06/2006 will only happy once in a life time... And this will nvr happen... A few more minutes and this day will be gone forever... Treasure everyone/everything around you... Wish everyone happiness always..

Actually wanted to post other things de.. But after surfing KT... I realize this is more interesting... Haha... 1st time I encountered such an interesting topic in KT... and somemore in adult section... Lol... Really cant help laughing... There are all kinds of pple around... Bth... Are kids nowadays so open? Haha... Probably I am more to conservative type ba... Told my dear abt the thread he also laugh till pengz.... Wahaha... I wanted to post the link here... But I think not very good la... Afterall the kid has his privacy... Lol...

Yeah... Booked our bkk tour liao... Lol.. After booking I realize I am so kiasu... Lol... Book 3 mths in advance... Wahaha... So looking forward sia... And yes... I finally have my cheese cake today at Coffeebean... Raspberry Cheese Cake + Carrot Cake + Black Forest... Woohoo... Super full sia... Yummy...

Today me suddenly siao... Wore a short brown bubble skirt with yellow camisole with lace.... And guess what... Plus the boots that I bought quite sometime ago... Usually I will look myself in the mirror before going out... Just to make sure what I wear is fine... But today dunno why I didnt... And only realize that I look 'hot' when I see myself in the reflection at mrt station... Haha... Machiam like mamasan sia... OMG.... No wonder pple keep looking at me... Probably singaporeans too conservative le... Especially when see pple wearing boots... Then give the weird expression... Anyway... I dont like the attention given to me... Especially from those ah-nehs and ah-pehs...

After walking for some time... I can hear my legs complaining... (Probably I seldom wear the boots plus I walked too much with high-heeled shoes) Pain and sour... Finally I bth le... Decided to go bugis to buy another pair of shoes... (Really don't intend to buy de... I know this may sound like an excuse... But really not my initial intention... I swear... ) Was looking at pumps... But either dun have my size, the design sucks or too expensive... Somemore I realize pumps dun really look nice one me... Probably my feet not fleshy enough ba... So sad... Was about to give up when my dear suggest we went to 2nd floor to see...

At Silverline, I tired many pairs... Lucky dear managed to find one quite nice and sweet looking de... And most imptly... Its cheap... Lol... Tried it on and find it quite big... The friendly sales girl suggest to put padding... Taadaa... It fits perfectly... And my image immediately change from mamasan to a innocent girl... Wahaha... Nvr know a pair of shoes can make so much difference... Lol.. I told the sales girl I will wear it immediately... Haha... Went to pay for it and we go walked walked again.. Lol.. Super comfortable... But when I reach home... Realized I got small blisters liao... =(

white pumps: $19.90

Today didnt eat any cheese cake again... Haiz... Been craving for it almost one week liao... Thought wednesday can eat de... Waited for 3 days liao.. Still haven eat one... So sianz... Now mood affected by this... Super irritating... How I wish I am rich... So that I will she de to eat a slice of $5+ cheese cake... I also wish dear is rich also... So that we wont live in poverty... Really sick of being so poor... Do everything also must think twice think thrice... When will the day come? Told my dear if one day I am really rich, and when I go overseas, I sure stay in those 5-6 stars hotel like Grand Hyatt... Stupid shit.. I only can dream...

Keep yawning whole day... Even doing filing also yawn... Really not enough sleep sia... But today quite busy... Got shipments finished loading... Need to follow up on documentations issues... Wanted to take leave on Monday just to rest de... Already send email and apply leave le... But adeline reminded me of the dept dinner on Monday 11am... Oh boy... I totally forget abt it... Too bad but to cancel my leave lor... Sianz leh...

Meet my mum and sis after work... Actually meeting minghui de... Think we really not fated to meet... Her family wanted to celebrate Father's Day earlier today... Bo bian... Cancel our appointment again... Everytime we just cant find a time to meet and chit-chat... Either me not free or she got duty or something on.... Haiz.. Think this is retribution ba.... Who ask me last time put people aeroplane also... Lol...

Meet at bugis, and went to this Jap-Western restuarant called Ma Maison... Environment is more to retro.. Not really retro also... Dunno how to explain.. Its like a cafe in the 50s or 60s ba... Everything bronzy bronzy de... Haha.. Food wise.. . Errr... Not bad la... But not very fulfilling... Dessert wise normal nia... Probably a bit too sweet le... Total cost about $60 for 3 of us... I give 7/10... My sis says only worth 6.5/10... Lol...

Then, shopping after dinner... This time I am only accompanying my sis... She bought quite a few things though... And me... Well... Errr... Wanted to stop buying de... But then still buy 1 necklace and 1 braclet... Lol... And 1 hp accessory for dear's sis for her birthday coming Tuesday...

Shop and shop... Walked until quite tired... See my mum like couldnt take it le... So end our shopping and took cab home...

paris bijoux crystal necklace: $10 (with lifetime warranty)

this is love at 1st sight

paris bijoux crystal hp accessory: $10(with lifetime warranty)

for dear's sis

hello kitty bracelet: $6 (paid by mum)

with this, i have one set of hello kitty accessories
(necklace, earrings and bracelet =D)

我想我是太空闲了。。。竟然有这种想法。。。昨天create 了属于我自己的shopping blog。。。现在想想，是有一点儿点笨啦。。。但算了，反正都开始了，就劲力把它做好吧。。。我妹妹说我很像在炫耀我的购物商品。。。呃。。。我想有一点点吧。。。但是我的主要想法是控制我自己。。。希望我能收敛一点。。。

虽然我每次shopping 都很开心，一旦付钱之后，不知为什么的，我会一种内疚的感觉。。。觉得我不应该买这么多，花太多钱了。。。可是回到家看到衣柜里的衣服，又觉得寥寥无几。。。有时觉得自己是个怪胎。。。真是难以捉摸。。。

Oh my... I went shopping again... Can't believe it myself... Gosh... And I love ThisFashion!!! Haha... Bought 7 items in total again!!! This is the 2nd time that I bought so many things at ThisFashion... I told myself not to shop.. But somehow cannot resist the temptation... The clothes too nice liao... Woohoo... After today... I really must ban myself from shopping liao... I told my dear... I won't shop until September when we go bkk.. Hope I can do it... Lol...

Suddenly got an urge... An urge to create my shopping blog... And this consist of all the things I bought over the past month... This is also another way for me to keep track of my shopping crave... Hope this blog can help me... Feel free to visit... But dont pin too much hopes... Cos I dont go brands and what I think is nice may not apply the same for you...

http://shopaholic-eeyore.blogspot.com

I am still in the mist of improving it... It may take some time for me to make my shopping blog more appealing... So meanwhile, please try to bear with the horrible layout... =X

army tank top: $14

after member discount:$12.60

front

back

lacy bag with gold handles:$22
after member discount: $19.80

front

back

black tank top: $18
after member discount: $16.20

white pants: $27

after member discount: $24.30

front

back

close up

black dress: $18

after member discount: $ 16.20

pearl-lookalike necklace: $10

after member discount: $9

brown flower & star necklace: $6
after member discount: $5.40

从来不知道赌球（世界杯）可以这么刺激的。。。生平第一次赌球，而且还是跟我的dear 赌。。。今天的第一场是欧洲 vs 日本。。。信心满满的我，赌日本会赢。。。我放欧洲一粒半。。。结果还是输了。。。 为什么!?！欧洲以 3 比 1 打败日本。。。哎。。。才冲一个凉我就输了＄2.50。。。哈哈。。。 希望下两场我会把我的＄2.50 赢回来。。。

说也奇怪，以前的我 （还和xxx 一起的时候），一听到足球，我就觉得很疲倦。。。觉得看足球是很浪费时间，也很闷的。。。当然，现在我还是觉得一样浪费时间，一样闷。。。但是能够和 dear 一起“ 赌”，我觉得和好玩。。。当我知道欧洲进球时，我第一次感觉原来赌球是这么刺激的。。。

希望这次的世界杯能把我们的距离再拉近。。。

Friday 09 June, 2006
1st time see midnight movie with dear... Think this is the 2nd time in my life watching midnight movie... 1st time was 3-4 years ago with the then allies and xxx... Still remember I lost my bracelet from xxx after the movie... Hmm.. Strange that I can still remember... Thot I have "format" all past memories and changed a new hard disk le... Anyway, those were in the past...

Me and dear watched "She's The Man"... This is highly recommended... Personal rating.. 8/10... Haha... This is so funny... Keep laughing in the cinema... Almost dropped my nachos... Lol... All the male actors in the movie so shuai... I got mesmerized by them le... Lol... *drooling*

Went to dear's house and stay again... Dunno why somehow reconsider abt whether I shld go dear's hse or go home... Still... I choose the former... Hehe...

Saturday 10 June, 2006
Think slept too late the previous night le... Me and dear can't seems to feel that we have slept enough(Though we wake up at 12 noon)... Went out with ah le after our late breakfast at 12pm+ =X... Two guys "escort" me back to home.. Hehe... Had a quick bath (I tried to be as fast as I can liao...), make up and off we go... Had our late lunch at KouFu in Punggol Plaza and head to Orchard... Today machiam like just bring ah le to my hse relax abit and he goes work liao... Din really bring him walk also... Lol... Went KBOX with dear at Cineleisure... Seems I just sing 2 weeks ago nia... Now I got the urge again... Jialat... Quite enjoyed myself... Hehe... If the room is not freezing cold... Think I will pick more songs to sing... :P

Watched 爱情魔发师 with my sis when reached home... This espisode so sad... Makes my heart feel sour in few of the scenes... Woohoo... So looking forward to eatch the next episode cos its more exciting and heart-wrenching also... Oh... Love... So sweet and yet bitter... Some singles yearn for it and yet some attached hope to get rid the love tangles... 问世间情为何物...

好累。。。 我真的累了。。。 心理的不愉快随时会爆发。。。但我什么都不能做，我只能躲在被窝里哭泣。。。感觉仿佛像一只被关在笼子里的小鸟。。。渴望自由。。。

是我变了吗？我也觉得自己变了。。。我再也不是那个单纯的我。。。我的要求，我的欲望，越来越多了。。。我到底该做什么，才能达到平衡点。。。蜜月期的恋爱是美的 。。。一旦蜜月期过了，再美的爱也能把一个人折腾到精疲力尽。。。

Part 10 ~~ The Ending

[Mel]: Jacko... I'm sorry... Really very sorry! I... Don't think we can be together! Its very unfair to you! You are such a nice guy! I'm sure you deserve someone much more better than me..
[Jacko]: Mel... Please dont say that! I can give you more time...
[Mel]: No... I don't want you to waste anymore time on me.... It's all my fault!
[Jacko]: Ok if that is really the case, I respect your decision! I don't want to stress you also... If letting you go, you will feel happier then I do it!!!
[Mel]: Thanks Jacko! *Offering a handshake* Friends??
[Jacko]: Well of course!! And by the way, that's a very beautiful necklace on your neck! Is from??
[Mel]: Oh.. It's from a good friend!

Deep inside Jacko's heart, he knew that the necklace was from Shawn... Mel had never mention anything about Shawn to Jacko before... Jacko found out by himself when one day, he was at Mel's house, he happened to see all the mails that Shawn send to her! Even though he was jealous of Shawn but he never ever questioned Mel before because he trusted her! Jacko knew that the break up was partly due to Shawn also... It really pains Jacko's heart to let go of Mel... Jacko just couldn't understand why she told Shawn that she was seeing someone already but yet she still choose to let go of this relationship! But one thing for surez, Mel had not forgotten about Shawn!!One late night when Mel had already fell asleep, suddenly she heard her doorbell rang so she went to open the door...

[Mel]: *Rubbing her eyes* Yes? Its so late already... What do you want??
[Shawn]: Mel...
[Mel]: Shawn?? How come its you?? When did you came back??
[Shawn]: Mel... Are you alright? Someone wrote an email to me telling me that something happened to you and it seem like very urgent so thats why I took the last flight and rushed back to see you...

Mel didnt know who wrote the email to Shawn... But seeing Shawn standing right in front of her, she just couldnt believe her own eyes!

[Mel]: So... So you still care for me don't you?
[Shawn]: I... I really can't bring myself to forget you... You been always on my mind! When you said all those words to me in the email, do you know how hurting it was?? I feel as though a thosuand needles poking through my heart!
[Mel]: I thought that I could get over you too but it seem like it's never the case... I know that you have changed a lot because of me... I know that you cared for me all these while... Everything that you did for me, I remembered all in my heart but just when I wanted to change my mind and be with you... You told me u gotta leave... I thought we won't have a chance to be together anymore...
[Shawn]: Mel.. Will you give me a chance to take care of you? I promise to love you for the rest of my life.... Will u wait for me???
[Mel]: *Sobbing* Yes I will...
[Mel & Shawn]: *Hugz*

~~ The End ~~

The writer says:

Finally the story came to an end! Well... It certainly is a happy ending for both Mel and Shawn... In a triangle relationship, there is always one person who got to sacrifice... And the one who choose to let go in the end usually do not have a choice! Sometimes things don’t go the way you want it to be and the only thing you can do is to accept the fact and slowly let time heal back the wound! But is always easier said than done!

Jacko loved Mel with all his heart and yet Mel still decided to let go of the R/S and ended up, Jacko was being hurt when he never even done anything wrong! But Jacko did not have any regrets! Whatever he did for Mel, all was because he loved her! Love does not give you a license to own someone. Even if the person is with you and yet the heart is thinking about someone else…Do you still feel happy being with the person?? I don’t think you will! But its never easy to forget someone whom you used to love so much just like that! No matter what, life still gotta moves on...

Hope all the couples out there stayed happily ever after and those single ones to meet your true love soon!

Part 9 ~~ The Gift

Slowly, Mel unwrapped the present... She saw the pendant sparkling right in front of her eyes... It was the most beautiful pendant she ever seen! Then, she saw a card beside it...

[Hi Mel,Firstly, I like to wish you a very Happy Birthday! I'm really very sorry that I couldn't come back to celebrate it with you... You should know the reason by now! How nice it will be if I'm there to wear the necklace for you and see your beautiful smile once again but I could only blame myself for not saving enough money all these while when I'm here! Nevertheless, I still hope that you will like the gift and may your life sparkle as bright as the star! Miss ya! Take care... Bye!Regards,Shawn]

Mel was lost for words when she finished reading the card! She misunderstood Shawn all along... She really felt very bad... All along she thought that Shawn didn't care about her anymore and just when she wanna give up thoughts about him, she found out that actually Shawn still cared about her... She was feeling very lost especially now when she just started to be with Jacko...

[Hi Shawn,I really dont know what to say! I liked the gift very much... Thanks! Why are you so silly?? You could have just make a trip back to visit ur family and frens during your vacation... I'm sure they miss you but yet you choose to buy tat gift for me and now, you gotta spent your vacation all alone there... I really feel so bad... Is it worth doing all these for me?? It isnt Shawn... And there is something that I ought to let you know... I'm already seeing someone else... So don't waste all your efforts on me anymore... I really appreciate whatever you done for me in the past... Take care too! Bye.. Regards,Mel]

Mel didnt really wanna be that harsh to Shawn but that was the only way to let Shawn get over her and for her to get over Shawn as well! She couldnt take it anymore... She didnt want her feelings for Shawn to be growing deeper and deeper since there wasn't any chances for them to be together anymore...

[Mel...I'm glad that you liked the gift! I just want to tell you that I never regretted buying you the gift... At least to me... Its worth it! I just want you to be happy... The rest of the things doesn't matter Mel! Dun worry about me here, I'll be fine... And glad that you already found someone to take care of you... Looks like you don't need me to worry about you anymore... I shall hand you over to him from now on.... Hope you really find your true happiness with him... All the best to the 2 of you!Regards,Shawn]

Mel never heard from Shawn again after that... She didn't know whether she was doing the right thing or not but she knew that it was the best sloution to end both their misery! Few days later, Mel met up with Jacko...

[Mel]: Jacko... There is something I want to tell you...
[Jacko]: Yes?

~ To be continued...

Part 8 ~~ The Birthday Celebration

The day arrived... It was Mel's birthday... She was waiting for Jacko to pick her up...

[Jacko]: Hi Mel... Sorry to keep you waiting... You... You look really beautiful in that lovely dress!
[Mel]: *Blushing* Thanks... So where are we going??
[Jacko]: Keep it a secret first... Why leh? You scare I sell you away ah? Haha..
[Mel]: I never thought of that lor... But now you mention it, i'm having a second thought..
[Jacko]: Well... It's too late now... Hahahaha

Jacko bought Mel to a resturant that was near the beach... He knew that Mel always love to hear the sound of the waves and be under the stars so the ambience was just perfect!

[Mel]: Jacko, I'm impressed! This place is really very nice...
[Jacko]: Glad that you like it!!! Come, follow me, I got a surprise for you!
[Mel]: What's that??
[Jacko]: Just follow me...

Mel just could hardly believe what she saw! Jacko lighted up the fireworks pathway for Mel to walk through while he sang her a birthday song! At the end of the pathway was a table with a small birthday cake lighted up with candles! The cake was obviously a home made one... Mel was moved to tears...

[Jacko]: Mel, I hope you dun mind... This is the first time I try to bake a cake... Hope it didnt look too horrible... And as you walked through the pathway just now, you noticed that the fireworks started to extinguish after a while... I know that you been kinda down all these while, I just hope that all your sadness will be gone just like the fireworks sparks and let me be with you through your ups and downs from this moment onwards... Can i???
[Mel]: Jacko...I... Actually inside my heart, there is someone that I had not forgotten completely... I wanna be fair to you... I need time...
[Jacko]: Mel... I understand but I dun mind! Even though you might not love me whole heartedly now, I believed that as time past by, with me, you will soon forget about your unhappy past and I will slowly take time to fill up your heart completely with all my love! I swear by the moon with all the stars as my witness that I will love you with all my heart...Will you give me this chance??

[Mel and Jacko]: *HuGz*

What more could Mel asked for? Jacko was always so understanding and caring towards her... Mel had a very unforgettable birthday celebration with Jacko! When Mel reached home, she saw a parcel lying on her bed...

~ To be continued...

Birth of Devil? or Auspicious Day? To the christians, is the former... Think cinemas now will be packed of people watching The Omen 666 ba... Chinese believed the latter... And 310 couples all gathered at the ROM to enter another stage of their life... To me, its me and my dear's 28months anniversary... Lol... Happy 28months anni dear... Too bad our 26months anni already over liao.. If not today really be all 2s and 6s... Wahaha... I know I am lame...

Oh.. Thanks jerome... Thanks for visting my blog... Hehe... Nvr thot that you will read my blog... Cos I myself find it boring... Lol... Glad that you enjoyed the love story... That makes me another excuse to surf forums more so that I can share nice stories here... Hehe...

Sharing Jerome's latest work:
I creep open my dusty old diaries
Reminising all the lost memories

On the very first page you appeared
Then all writings were about you for sure

Every line was I love you
Every ending was I miss you

You have been in my heart all along
In times of goodness and bygones

When my day comes to a halt
I miss you and all comes to a stop

But when I am to write again
There will be nothing else to pen

I love you,
I love you,
I love you

I miss you...

Part 7 ~~ The Misunderstanding

Its been a while since Shawn left Singapore but he was constantly on Mel's mind... And one day...

[Jacko]: Hello...
[Mel]: Jacko?
[Jacko]: Yes! Is me...How are you? Been a while since we last meet up... You free later??
[Mel]: I... Ermmmm...
[Jacko]: Well... Is okay if you are not free... Can always make it another time...
[Mel]: Hmmmz... No I'm free... Can you accompany me to a place??
[Jacko]: Okie surez.. I pick u up in half an hour time...
[Mel]: Okie see ya.. Byeeee
[Jacko]: Byeeee...

Half an hour later...

[Mel]: Hi... Sorry to keep u waiting!
[Jacko]: Its okay! So where do u wanna go??
[Mel]: Can we go to River Point??
[Jacko]: Oh okie.... Are u alright? You look kinda down... What happened??
[Mel]: I'm.. I'm fine...

Mel was back to River Point once again... The place where she was with Shawn the other time... All the memories just started to flash back and tears started to roll down her cheeks... She missed Shawn deep inside her heart... Jacko didnt know what happened to Mel but he believed that if Mel want to share her problem with him, she will... So he never kept prompting her about it... He just stood there quietly to comfort her... As time goes by, Mel and Jacko became more and more closer friends... Jacko really liked Mel a lot but he don't know whether Mel will be willing to accept him or not? In the end, he still decided to confess to her on her coming Birthday...

**************************************************************
[Hi Mel... How have you been? I'm sorry that I took so long to contact you cos I am busy coping with my studies down here... I hope everything is well on your side! Btw, your birthday is coming soon.. What do you want me to get you from here?? And I got a good news to tell you... I'll be on vacation soon so I might fly back to Singapore to stay for a while... I'm really looking forward to see you again Mel! Do take care!Regards,Shawn
**************************************************************

Shawn didnt know what can he get for Mel... Just then, he walked past a shop and something caught his attention! "Wishing Star for SALE...Wish for Eternality with your Love Ones!" It was a very beautiful shooting star pendant but the cost of the pendant was equipvalent to buying an air ticket back to Singapore... So, if he bought the pendant, he wont be able to go back to fly back to Singapore to see Mel... Still, Shawn decided to get it for Mel cos he knew Mel will love it for surez!

**************************************************************
[Hi Mel,It's me again... Jus wanna tell you that I won't be going back to Singapore anymore because something crop up the very last minute... I'm really very sorry! Hope you are not too disappointed! Take care.. Bye! Regards,Shawn
**************************************************************

Indeed, Mel was really very disappointed... She thought that at least she will be able to spend her birthday with Shawn but looks like all her hopes were gone! She knew that she has lost her position in Shawn's heart cos she just couldn't understand what was most important than coming back to Singapore to see her?? In the past, no matter how busy, Shawn will always make time for Mel but now....

*ring* *ring*

[Mel]: Hello...
[Jacko]: Hello Mel! wat are you doing?
[Mel]: I'm checking my email...
[Jacko]: Oh icic... Errr... Err... This Saturday is your birthday rite? Are... Are you free??
[Mel]: I.. Ermmmm... Shouldnt be a problem cos I dun tink I have anything on already...
[Jacko]: You sound very sad... Is everything alright on your side??
[Mel]: I'm fine... Thanks!
[Jacko]: Okie glad to hear that... Just remember that anytime you need a listening ear... Can give me a ring k?
[Mel]: Surez... That's very sweet of you!
[Jacko]: Then I shall not distub you further more, do have an early nite and I see you on Saturday nitez
[Mel]: Okie... Good nite!

~ To be continued...

Feeling weird weird these few days... Probably not enough sleep ba... Feels so dreamy... 1st time dream in train... Can feel my body goes weak when I sleep in the train... Couldnt remember the dream at all... I only know I am very shag... Simply dont have any strength at all... Hope this feeling will go away soon...

03 June 2006, Saturday

Went to the PC Show 2006 @ Suntec with dear and ah le yesterday... As expected, it was crowded... Everyone was hoping for some good bargains... Well... I think the PC show this time was quite disappointing... No cheap bargains... The prices were about the same as SLS... As for freebies... I don't find it appealling also... After the PC show, we went to have our lunch-cum-dinner at PizzaHut... My treat... Hehe... Cos me late... So treat them... After that, ah le going back to work and we accompany him to wait for the shuttle bus back to City Hall Mrt... Waited a while, he decided to walk back... Cos we think that it will be faster if we walked... On the way back to the mrt... Human jam... Everyone stucked at the pathway... There is no way to walk at all.. Everyone pushing hoping to get to the other end of the pathway... So frustrated... I can still joke around and said that we are like refugees being trapped in a room waiting to be free... Haha... Alas, dear can't stand it anymore and hold my hand"pushing" his way through when he saw a small pathway... Ah le follow suit... Finally... We are free... Haha... We guided ah le back to mrt station and we went back to the pc show and helped my sis buy external hdd... Wanted to go shopping... But deicided to sit at Starbucks and relax... We tooked some pics with my hp as well... Haha... Kinda funny and looks stupid when we took pics of ourselves... But feel very sweet... Hehe... Then, head back to dear's home...

04 June 2006, Sunday
We slept until 1pm then woke up... Ate our brunch, relax a bit and we went out... Went to bugis to take our mthly photo... This time quite relaxed... No time limit when designing our neo-prints... After a few months of neo-print taking, we are quite "experienced" in posing and designing liao... Lol... Next destination, Jurong Point... Haha... Had our dinner at the foodcourt and went walk walk... Saw Ultraman... Haha... Stupid eh... Dunno why the kids like them so much =X... Wanted to take the funny poses of the Ultraman de... But we are too far le... Cant really capture a clear pic... So forget it le... Continue our shopping... Ok.. My shopping... Actually ban myself on shopping de... But somehow dunno why this time cant resist the temptation... Probably becos of the GSS ba... Bought one pair of shoes at SWANK... Cute sia... Hehe... Saw one top at MATCH... Another at PINKY-G... both $29.90... Gosh.. Expensive sia... Lucky heed my dear's advice... Went to my favourite place... ThisFashion!!! Lol... Saw quite a few tops I like... One of them is almost the same top that I saw in TW auction... After converting to SGD and plus shipping fee... Abt S$25... Haha... Lucky didnt buy online... At ThisFashion so cheap sia... only $17... Wahaha... Can save $8... Lol... Yes I cant resist ThisFashion... Bought 4 tops at one shot... $44.80... Haha... So lifted my ban on myself.. Nvm... Since this month already started shopping... Then nxt month then I ban myself again... I'm sure I can do it de... Ganbatte... Wahaha...

sleeveless white top with pearls & lace: $18
after member's discount: $16.20

lime green tank top with lacy traps: $9
after member's discount: $8.10

yellow spaghetti top: $10
after member discount: $9

cap-sleeved milky top with black lace:$17
after member discount:$15.30

half-covered pumps: $19.90

Part 6 ~~ The Departure

[Shawn]: Mel...
[Mel]: Oh Shawn! What a surprise..what you doing here?
[Shawn]: Errr..I..I.. Who is the guy who send you home just now? You are seeing someone already?
[Mel]: No... No... He is just a friend of mine...
[Shawn]: Well.. Does'nt really matter if he really is your boyfriend... I feel happy for you and at least I be able to leave Sinagpore at ease!
[Mel]: Leave... Leave.. Singapore?? But why? Where are you going Shawn?
[Shawn]: I'm be going to Australia for further studies and I might not come back anymore. Thats the reason why am I here today coz I ought to let you know...
[Mel]: Not.. Not coming back anymore?? When are you leaving?

(Mel was trying hard to hold back her tears)

[Shawn]: I be leaving in one week time... Mel, I'm glad that we never started a relationship together... Or else I cant imagine what will happen to us now... Looks like you made the right choice... I also didnt wanna hurt you... That's why all along I never force you no matter how much I love you! As long as you are happy, I be happy for you too! Mel, do take good care of yourself, you have always been weak since school days... Hope you will soon find someone better than me to take care of you for the rest of your life and most of all, promise me that you will lead a happier life ahead!

After that, Shawn turned and started to walk away... Mel ran towards him and hug him from behind! She didnt said anything to him... Tears just kept rolling down her cheeks... She knew that she didnt want Shawn to go... But still, she was in no position to stop him from leaving!

[Shawn]: Mel... Please dont cry... It really breaks my heart to see you in tears! I wouldn't bear to leave Singapore if i see you like this....
[Mel]: Shawn... Promise me that you will continue to keep in touch with me even though you are there okay??
[Shawn]: Okay, its a promise!
[Mel]: Can we meet up for one last time for dinner before you leave Singapore?
[Shawn]: Ermmmm...okay!

The night at the dinner...

[Shawn]: Wow Mel, you sure look very nice today! Know you for so long already, didnt know that when you doll yourself up, you can be that pretty...
[Mel]: *Blushing* Thanks.. So wat time is your flight tomorrow??
[Shawn]: Its 7.15am in the morning...
[Mel]: Oh okay... Can I come to send you off??
[Shawn]: No... No... You better not, don't get me wrong... I just don't want to have the feeling of can't bear to leave you... So I guess that its better that you don't come...
[Mel]: Okay if that is the case, I respect your decision...
[Shawn]: Mel... Can i asked you something??
[Mel]: Yes?
[Shawn]: Have you ever fallen for me before??
[Mel]: Ermmm...No
[Shawn]: Okay thks for the honest answer... I really hope that answer is from the bottom of your heart! Mel, I just wanna let you know that I wont forget you in my entire life no matter where i am... Meeting you was the greatest thing that has ever happened to me... The memories we had together will always stay within me... Will u miss me??
[Mel]: Yes I will... I...
[Shawn]: That answer is good enough to keep me going when I'm over there.... Can i have one last goodbye hug from u??

[Mel & Shawn] *Hugz*

Mel was trying hard to hold back her tears... She wanted to tell him that she love him but it will only add on to his misery and beside he is leaving already... They won't have a future anymore so she rather keep that answer inside her heart... That night, Mel cried herself to sleep...

~ To be continued...

Part 5 ~~ The Surprise

Mel really feel bad towards Jacko! But she just dont understand why Jacko was so good towards her. Afterall, they are just friends who have never met before! Mel didnt want to think much either coz in her mind now, memories of what happened last night kept flashing inside her head. However, in the end she decided to send an email to Jacko...

**************************************************************

[Hi Jacko!I dunno whether you will get the chance to read this email when you are in Perth. I just wanna say I'm Sorry! Sorry to keep you waiting the other night... Sorry to make you worry about me... Sorry for not returning your calls and sms... I had my own reasons... Hope you will understand! Hmmmz... So when are you returning back to Singapore? Maybe we can meet up soon after you return back to Singapore... Guess I owe you a treat coz I really feel so bad! Take it as my way of saying sorry to you! Anyway u take care... Bye! Regards,Mel]

**************************************************************

Few days later....

**************************************************************

[Hi Mel,I'm really so happy to hear from you again! Glad that you are alright! Well... You need not feel bad about it... Say till so many times sorry! It's okay girl! I understand... Will be back in Singapore next Sunday at around 7pm! Well... I'm really looking forward to meeting up with you! Finally got the chance already... So looks like all the waiting that night was worthwhile... Hahaha... And of cos I won't let a girl treat me on a first meet up session... The treat will be on me instead! K then, I gtg! U take care too.... Byeeeeee... Cheers,Jacko]

**************************************************************

That Sunday at the airport... Mel had came to the airport to give Jacko a surprise! She knew his flight had landed and she took out her mobile phone and called him...

[Mel]: Hello...
[Jacko]: Mel!! What a surprise...
[Mel]: Ermmmm...Where are you now?
[Jacko]: Oh! I'm still at the airport... I just reached not too long ago. Why?
[Mel]: Actually... I'm... I'm... At the airport now...
[Jacko]: What?? Hey Hey you must be joking with me right?
[Mel]: Really! Coz i plan to give you a surprise..I see you at coffee bean in 10 minutes time k?
And btw, I'm wearing a blue top and holding a Cleo magazine!
[Jacko]: Oh okie...see ya! Byeee
[Mel]: See u...byeee...

At Coffee Bean...

[Jacko]: Ermmmm... Hello? Are you Mel?
[Mel]: Errr... Hi! Jacko??

They finally met each other face to face! Jacko could hardly believe that the gal sitting right in front of her was Mel! She was so beautiful... He knew that it was a love at first sight! To Mel, Jacko was a fine looking man... He didnt look like he was in his thirties at all... She had a rather good impression of him too! They sat there and chatted for a few hours...

[Mel]: Its getting late! I tink we better go... I guess you must be tired also after your flight too...
[Jacko]: Its okay! Let's go... I send you home first...
[Mel]: Errr... Dun need to trouble you... You still have all those suitcase with you... I can go home by myself...
[Jacko]: No, pls let me send you home! At least we shared a cab and I see you till your house downstairs then I head home from there... Is that alrite?
[Mel]: Well... Okay if you insist!

30 Minutes later...

[Mel]: Okay... I reached home already! Thks for sending me home...
[Jacko]: You are welcome! My pleasure...
[Mel]: Good nite...bye...
[Jacko]: Err... Err... Mel? Can I get to see you again soon??
[Mel]: I... I... Cant really promise you coz I'm rather busy lately! I let you know again?
[Jacko]: Surez! Good nite...bye...

As Mel walked to the lift, she saw a familiar figure standing there...

~ To be continued...

Last minute met up with my juniors... lw and xl... Long time no see xl liao.. Its like been a few years ba... She still the same... Went to bugis again... Dun intend to buy anything de.. Just wan to accompany them nia.. But still end up buying 4 pairs of earrings...3 pairs for $5, another one for $8.90... Me seldom buy earring more than $5 for each pair de.. (Me a cheapo I know...) But this time, dunno why mesmerized by this particular earring ... And bought it... Hehe... Along the way, me n xl keep pyscho-ing lw to buy things... Lol.. Lw bth sia... End up buying many things... Xl powerful sia... never knew she is such a good bargainer... Lol... Can bargin so much... Pro sia... Lol... It was actually quite fun to go out with them... Probably we meet once in a blue moon ba.. Then wont feel so sianz... Haha... Think our next shopping meeting would be fun also... Yeah...

my buys...

assorted earrings: 3 for $5

pinky stars (for my sis)

piggy studs(for my sis, lost 1)

luminous lime green earrings

heart and star earrings:$8.90

Part 4 ~~ I'm Sorry

[Shawn]: Mel... its so nice to see you once again... I really..like..like...you!! Can you dun leave me pls?
[Mel]: Shawn, you are drunk!
[Shawn]: NO! IM NOT IM NOT!! Do..Do.. you have feelings for me too? Im sure you have or you wouldnt rush down like this...
[Mel]: I did that because you are my friend and i dun want anything to happen to you. If this give you a wrong idea, then im sorry!
[Shawn]: Why you just refuse to give me a chance Mel? Why are you so cruel to me? I know in the past, i was a flirt but i have changed! Still..still...you dont wanna accept me..is this fair to me??? At least give me a reason...
[Mel]: Ermmm...you...you will never understand! Sometimes things happened without a reason!
[Shawn]: What must I do to prove my love for you?
[Mel]: Nothing... dun be silly Shawn. Arent we better off as friends like this?
[Shawn]: NO! I want you to be my girl...not my friend!!!
[Mel]: Shawn, i guess you are really drunk...why not u rest for a while?
[Shawn]: No...No...i dun want...
[Mel]: Please.... listen to me for this once can?

Mel sat there with Shawn lying down on her lap. It really breaks her heart to see Shawn like this. Deep inside her heart, she knew that she still loved Shawn alot! As much as she wanted to be with Shawn but she sees no future together with him! Shawn couldnt even provide her with the basic sense of security that she needed the most! She knows Shawn too well...given his character, watever he wants, he will always strive very hard for it and the harder it is to obtain, the more he will find means of way to achieve it! However, he also get sick and tired of things easily! Mel didnt want to be hurt by somone whom she loved so deeply so she choose not to step into this relationship. She choose to suffer all this by herself. She had to hide her feelings in front of Shawn no matter how much she liked him.. She rather keep Shawn as a friend for a lifetime than to lose him for good! Mel didnt sleep for the whole night and early next morning, she saw the most beautiful sunrise.. one that she would never forget in her entire life! Perhaps it was because Shawn was just beside her..somehow the sunrise was much more beautiful than ever before...

[Shawn]: Mel? Ermmm...sorry! Your laps must be numb after one whole night...
[Mel]: No its okay! Are u okay??
[Shawn]: I guess im having a very bad headache...
[Mel]: You wait for me a while...I be right back!
[Shawn]: Mel...Mel...where are you going??

Few minutes later...

[Mel]: Nah, put this ice on your forehead, you will feel better and finish up this cup of hot tea!
[Shawn]: Thks Mel..tats very nice of you! And btw, i was so drunk last nite.. thks for taking care of me... hope i didnt scare you off...
[Mel]: *Sneezing* No..dun mention it!
[Shawn]: Oh no! You must have catch a cold last nite! Im so sorry to make u fall sick because of me!
[Mel]: Its not your fault, dun blame yourself! Im always been tat weak...
[Shawn]: Come, lets go! I send you home and you have a good rest and dont go to work today!
[Mel]: Okie..let me call back to office and inform them first...

Mel tooked out her handphone and saw "20 missed call'' ; ''8 unread messages''. Just then, she realised that she had forgotten about Jacko! She opened up the message and read...

[ lst message: Mel..you reached home already?
2nd message: Its 2.30am now..where are you?
3rd message: Im still waiting for your reply... call me back pls...
4th message: Can you at least reply me back something? Im kinda worry about you!
5th message: Its 4am already..i still cant sleep coz u havent call me back yet! Have u forgotten?
6th message: Mel...actually i want to tell you that i be flying off to Perth this morning for business trip. Its a last minute decision..I be away for 2 weeks... can i at least get to hear from you before i leave?
7th message: It's 6.30am now...im at the airport already! Im still waiting...
8th message: Well... im going off now...looks like i dun have the chance to bid goodbye to you! Take care girl! Bye! ]

[Shawn]: Mel...u okay? You dun look too good! Wats wrong?
[Mel]: Ermmmmm...Noth..Nothing!

~ To be continued...