Wanted to post on wed (26 Apr) de... But somehow dunno where my mind goes.. I've forgetten... Recently dunno wats wrong with me... Cant concentrate at all... I can multitask in the past.. No prob at all.. Now.. I cant.. Haiz... Anyway... my dear bought me another eeyore even though he is broke liao... Yippee... A new range... And it perfectly fits my nick in KT, LSX etc... Hehe...

Hope you really can go with me to the concert...

Its been a loooooonnnnnggggg time since I met lw... Both of us cant even remember when is the last time we met... Its like... so long... Alas... Today met lw.... Cant believe my eyes... My dear junior become so lady-like... So pretty sia... *Drooling* haha....

Paiseh.. make her wait for 45min like that... Both of us keep chit-chatting until we keep walking rounds in TM and CS...Lol... And guess what... we ate our dinner for abt 1 hr.... While eating, we talked also... I guess too many things to catch up between us... Lol.. Lw wanted to buy pants for her work purpose de... Looking around in many shops, she still din managed to get one that fits her... So well... End up she din buy any pants... People change year after year... but the character of me and lw still abt the same... Well... dunno abt her.... That's what I feel... I guess, becos our character, our thinking and the way we do things, is somewhat similar, thats why we can click.... Geez... Take care my dear junior.. Hope to see you soon...

PS: Ermmm... sorry zh... to put you aeroplane again... Feeling quite bad about it... Sorry... If got nxt time... Dun worry.. wont put u aeroplane le... Take care ya..

Happy belated birthday Eileen... By right should post yesterday(25/apr).. But too busy le.. Then forget... Paiseh.. Hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday...

Happy birthday to Huixian, from my secondary school.. Still remember last time pple say we look very alike.. machiam sisters... Long time no meet le... Think now both of us become prettier liao.. Wahaha... I know I bhb... =X...

Also, Happy birthday to Roger.... erm... better dun reveal his age here hor... Haha... Nth much to say abt him also... I know he want low profile... Lol... Mister... 祝你年年25... Haha.. (I din reveal your real age hor)... Wahaha...
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Abit sadden now... Haiz... But dun wish to talk much here... Too little privacy le... Ermmm... For those whom I hurt (maybe not hurt, but dunno wat word to use) unintentionally... Sorry... I know I am getting bad to worse le... Me can roughly know why my circle of frens getting smaller and smaller... I think I am a better fren online than in real world... I can express my words better in virtual world... Probably is the influence of forums, msn etc ba... Think better dun talk too much here... Will update again... Take care my frens...

OMG... I've got a stalker!!! He actually knows my msn, knows where I am working and even knows I am planning to go in Malaysia this weekend... This is so damn freaking scary sia!!! Nvr meet a stalker in my life before sia...




























Haha... stupid guang fei (my dear's cousin).. scare the wits out of me... lucky i am smart enough to guess who he is from his email... if not, think i sure behave like a fool infront of him... Lol... So guys out there... If you wanna stalk gals... please dun use obvious email with your name/surname... Haha...

Feel sooooooooo tired today... Been coughing the whole night until I couldnt sleep at all... And i resort to sleep in a sitting position... Whole body ache like siao... Feels so weak... And worse... When I woke up... saw my dark rings getting more and more obvious.. Almost faint on the spot... Haha...

Met dear and ah le 2pm at Jurong East... But as usual... I am always late de... Hehe... Wanted to go to the warehouse sales... But blur me... Forget to check the exact place and end up dunno how to go... Lol... So the three of us went to IMM and walk aimlessly... Ah le saw his fren when we walked past Taka Jewellery... They chatted awhile and I proceed to buy my Fasio mascara... Aiming it for a long time le... Today finally got it le... Hehe.... Then, we walked about aimlessly... Abt 4pm+... Ah le says he going back cos he start work at 6pm... We direct him to take the shuttle bus and two of us continue our aimless walk... I suggested to go KTV... Hehe... and off we proceed to Hougang KBOX...

Had our dinner at the foodcourt... Me ate yong tau hu... Sucks man... This is the worst yong tau hu that I ever ate in my whole life... So yucky... I only ate half and I gave up... Nvr will I give the stall a chance again... After our dinner... We went to Hougang Plaza to sing KTV... Haha... We are so lucky... They got a promotion today... 40% off cover charge.. Each person only $12.60+++... Lol.. Super cheap sia... Though there are not many new songs, we still sang quite alot of songs... 3 hrs of singing... Sang till we lost our voice... Lol...

Hehe... Took mc again today... One mth one mc.. lol... This time took mc really got a reason.. Went to see doctor to take my cough medicine.. Been coughing for 3 weeks liao... Finally bth le... Too much phelgm le... Doctor say is bacteria infection... Bacteria again.. Think my hse too much bacteria liao.. Haha...

Changed my bedsheet today... though is still tweety bird design.. but this time the design is brighter and cuter... hehe...

Besides changing bedsheet... I also change my hammies cage... Its been a long time since I last changed le... They were so happy having a clean cage... haha... they so cute sia... They look so lost when i put them into their cages... Keep running and sniffing around... Think they are finding their own "smell" ba... But one thing quite sad is my small hamster's fur drop alot... I think his days are numbered le... Whereas for the big hamster, he is getting fatter and fatter le... After they settled down in their clean cage... I saw the small one cleaning himself.. seems like he like the new bath sand... Hehe... Of cos I wont miss this chance... Took a 3mins video of him cleaning himself... So cute... But I think he clean more than 3 mins... =D

After doing all the things I wanna do, I prepared myself and get ready to meet my dear... We went to watch a dance perfomance called "Burn The Floor" (http://www.burnthefloor.com.sg/) at Suntec Convention Hall... I wanted to take train there... Who knows, the stupid bus 62 so long... Waited for 20mins still didnt see any sign of it... So bo bian.. I took cab there... And traffic jam somemore... Guess is peak hr ba... Alas, wasted $18.70 just on cab fare... So bo hua... Haiz... But lucky, the performance is good.. else really bo hua liao...Though our seating not quite good, we were still fascinated by the dance movements... Cool man... Thanks Sharon for giving me the tickets... Quite enjoy the performance... This reminds me of the days when I am dancing during secondary days... Remembering the dance movements, catching the rhythm etc... If got the chance, I sure will take up dancing again...

Happy birthday Ming... May all your dreams come true ya.. Hope you are doing fine now... And also happy birthday to my mum as well.. Both share the same birthdate... Hehe... Such a coincidence sia... difference of 30years exactly... Lol...

Haiz... Made another mistake again... This time is really my overlook.. Stupid sia.. Shld have check properly de.. Shldnt assume sia... Hope like what xdd says... Sleep le tml everything will be fine... Arrrgghh... why I so careless... Got a bad feeling that I sure tio shoot tml de... Getting sianz liao... Told my dear my depression will be coming back again le... Haha.. he keep saying "choy" and tell me must defeat my depression... Lol... Think my dear also scared of me having depression liao...

Eyes blink blink... so fast long weekend over le... sianz eh.. A fast recap of my weekend..

Sat (15 Apr)
Went to eat dim sum at Teahouse @ Chinasquare in the morning to pre-celebrate my mum's bday... Me had went there quite a few times with my colleagues... This is the 1st time that I go with my dear, mum, sis and the mcp... We were among the 1st... Not much pple there at 1st... And the pushcart-style is not ready yet... So I ordered directly from the menu... Think we eat too fast le... Within one hr... All of us are so full... Haha.. And the best thing is... Teahouse forgot to charge us two bowls of porridge which is $12... Lol... I paid and we left quickly... Haha... After that we went to fep and walk walk... And after ah le join... I left with my dear and ah le.. leaving my mum and sis to shop themselves... As usual.. 3 of us went to usual place, did the usual stuff... Lol... Ah le also discovered that we always went to the same old place everytime we go out... Well... Cannot blame us... sg too small le... But we told ah le.. Nxt time sure bring him to other place...Hunt for my camera charger but couldnt find... Bought my mouse and had our lunch at SLS and we head for home early.. cos ah le wanted to start work early and i am super tired... reach my dear hse and spent the rest of the day at his hse... spent a night there as usual...

Sun (16 Apr) [Today]
My dear and I slept till 12.30pm then wake up... haha.. two pigs.. dunno y... we are super tired... no strength at all... I think we slept too much le... Woke up, washed up... Had our lunch his mum bought for us then nua again... Haha... Played "DOGZ" in my dear's mini... My dog getting clever liao... haha... Imagine if is a real dog... I think it would be real fun... Then, we watch Nanny McPhee... pirated cd which we asked ah le to buy in msia... haha... =x... the quality not very good... cos its pirated de... we couldnt really catch wat the characters are saying... they talked too fast le... Everything quite clear untill the 2nd disc... Some probs and we couldnt watch at all... Only can fast forward to a later part... This movie is quite similar to Narnia... sth magical... Hehe... But I dun really understand why nanny mcphee become prettier towards the end... Anyway not a bad show... After the movie, again, nua at dear's hse... Stayed with him until its time for him to book in... And now.. its time for me to koonz liao... Hope tml will be a better day...

Happy Holidays!!! Yeah... Finally holiday le.. And loong weekend somemore... Haha...

Slpt until 11.45am den woke up.. Wash up and bathe and prepare to do my hair le... Haiz.. Think I too rush... End up burning myself on the neck with the DIY hair styler... So pain sia... Tried to cover with powder but still very obvious... Today's curls very nice and I am very satisfied... But who knows... Everything wash out by the rain when i go out... Sianz half... Wasted my 30mins of styling... So sad... And the worse is dear and ah le say today my dress sense very weird... Haiz... Bo bian.. Go bugis see see and bought a skirt and changed immediately... 1st time in my life like that lorz... Sianz... All the bubble skirt's fault.... If the button did not drop off, I wont change into 3/4 pants de... Anyway as usual, 3 of us shop ard at Bugis... Ah le quite disappointed... Cos he tot today we can walk till very late cos he no need to work... Who knows... Clashed with my grandma bday celebration... So... Bo bian... Have to leave him alone to go back again... Think he and my dear got cursed... Everytime got event, both of them sure cannot fully enjoy de...

After Bugis, my dear and I went to Boon Keng to look for the resturant.. Reached there abt 7.15pm... Almost everyone are there liao.. As usual... Went there to sell my smile... Din really mingle ard this time... Wish grandma happy birthday and started eating... Along the way... A small thing happened... My sis cried... Strangely... dunno why I started to cry when I saw her cried... So paiseh... And my mascara smudge my face... More paiseh... Lucky only my dear see nia... Jialat leh.. dunno why everytime I see pple cry, I will automatically cry de... Just cannot control lor.... Hmmm... Anyway the dinner not really fantastic also la... Quite normal...

When I reach home, saw my mum and she ask me to go join my sis at KBOX AMK... I dun wan de... But probably I am craving to sing very long lor.. So in the end I went le... Abit lugi though... Cos me and my mum only sing for 2 hrs nia... But nvm la.. not I pay... Wahaha... My mum comment my voice very deep... my singing not nice... Well... I admit la... But then hers also not very good lor... Everytime off key de... At least I still can sing lor... Haha..

Haha.. tomorrow holiday le... Waited for so long le... Today's time tick suppppperrrrrrr slow sia... Keep pining for 5.15PM... The more I pin the slower the time seems to go... Sianz... While surfing lifestylex, I found out that one of my poly classmate (zl) and pri sch classmate (wd) are in the forum also... Lol... The world is really small sia... Nvr expect such a ulu forum still can find frens there... Haha... Hmm... wonder will I be able to find a sec sch classmate.... =X

Today got a new colleague... a sales executive... yeah... no more credit lines for us le... Wahaha... (keeping my fingers crossed... ) Eh... Look wise... Still can see la.. Mai hiam is errr... ok la... Ai hiam not like sai also... Average looking la... Maybe my expectation is high u see... Lol... See him 1st day sit at the desk doing nth and reading Mitsui's manual... reminds me of my 1st day also... Haha... So blur and lost... Lol...so bad... make fun of him... haha...

After work, meet my dear for dinner at amk... Ate the jap pork cutlet... Nice sia.. inside the cutlet got ham and cheese... So nice... Yummy... haha... Then, we went ntuc and buy tonics... One for my grandma another for my mum for their birthdays... My dear bought one for his mum for mother's day as well... As usual, stay at dear's hse until 11pm... And as usual, I would take cab home... Wanted to share with my sis de.. Cos she ending work that time also.. But she say dun wan and ask me to go home myself... Who knows... after i reach home 10 mins later she called and ask me to pass her the money cos she taking cab also... Stupid leh... If take together each person only pay $4 lor... Now each person pay double... Haiz... Now my wallet totally zero liao.. Jialat... Tml have to withdraw money liao...

I knew it... Finally my body couldnt take it le... I am down with cough and flu with lots and lots of phlegm... My throat so itchy... Want to cough in office but scare disturb other colleagues... And my nose blocked til whateva I eat, everything is tasteless... Sianz... Hope I can recover by thursday so that I can eat dinner and dim sum happiliy on friday and saturday...

The weather so bad today... Sometimes rain sometimes sunny like hell... And everytime in and out of air-con room... Wont fall sick is a miracle le... Haha... Eh... Abit too exaggerated la... Probably is my own weak body... But strange la... Seems like I sure fall sick every month de... Hmm... Anyway I think I better stop talking how "sick" I am... Later someone say I gain sympathy from pple nia... Lol...

Somehow someway... I think I have changed... Changed for the better or not... Well.. this is for pple to judge liao... In the past, when biased-ism or favouritism is shown in my hse... I will be super upset and brood abt it for a few days... Yes... You may call it jealousy of me... Now... I dont give a damn anymore... Cos in my heart... the so called family-bonds are broken... Whether I am cared or not.. It doesnt matter to me anymore... Living together also holds no more meaning le... My top priority now is to earn/save as much money as I can... Once I am capable of supporting myself... I will say bye bye to this home...

To my frens who cared abt me... Dont worry... I am not in depression now... I only pen down my feelings... Thats how I feel... Me now trying hard to overcome my depression... I think it is getting better le... (I think la... haha... )

"n Liƒë, wë mAy ëncøuntër many dëƒëats... but nëvër ët øursëvës bë dëƒëatëd..." This is my nick in msn... and this is quoted from qi's blog... this is what qi used to encourage me... Thanks qi.. I will always remember this quote de... Another one that qi used to encourge me is abt being optimistic... "A little bird in the sky... U look up & it shits in your eye.U don't mind & U don't cry.U just thank GOD that elephants don't fly!"

After work, meet my dear... Intend to watch movie de.. But I last minute changed my mind... So go walk walk after dinner @ ThaiExpress ... Long time din eat le... The seafood pineapple rice and seafood tom yam soup... Yummy... Still remember the 1st time I eat Thai Express was with 2 minghui(s) and jac... And that was also the time that I fall in love with the tom yam soup.. Haha...

After walk walk at MS, we walked to bugis... Thanks to zh... If not for her who bring us walk that time... Think we will waste money on taking train liao... Hehe... Lucky we manage to walk there without getting lost... Hmm... so we are not road idiots afterall... Lol.. Reached bugis and we head to watsons to buy cough sweets for my dear... Then we head to take neo prints... Lol... Though not the 1st time take... We are still very clumsy and blur... cos the machine all in jap... Hehe... This time, I think its very nice... nicer than the last anniversary de... Haha... I keep taking it out and see... My dear says I very zi lian... Lol... And I realize that we are wearing the same t-shirts when we took neo prints last mth... Haha... Nxt mth must be careful liao... Keke...

Happy 26 Mths anniversary dear!!! Another mth le... I was thinking... If I made another decision.. We wont be able to celebrate this day le... Thank you for not giving up on me... Thank you for holding on to your belief and love for me... Also have to thanks to the dream that I had... If not for it... Think I will really give up le... Hope today will be an enjoyable day...

Happy Birthday Calvin (from T14F)... Ermm.. If I am not wrong, you should be 23 liao right... Hehe.. older le... Everytime wish pple happy birthday is almost the same de.. so here also wish you the same lorz... Wish your dreams come true... Going to ORD right? (or already ORDed le)... Anyway all the best to you in your future job/study... Take care ya...

Super tired.. After doing closing... suddenly become weak le... Haha... Though my profit exceed 10k... Still lucky la.. nth serious de... Whole morning keep yawning and yawning... Bth sia.. Whole body weak weak de... Nvm... Wednesday liao.. 2 more days then weekend le... Lol... Cant wait for weekends to come... Yeah...

After so many depressions act... me now slowly... very slowly learning to be optimistic... I try la.. But no guarantee hor... So dun expect too much from me... Sorry to all frens who directly or indirectly influenced by me... I realize I've brought some of my frens unhappiness and worries... Paiseh folks... Hope I can really changed back into the bubbly huisi in the past... Kk... I go play my game le... Sayoonara!!!

Had a strange dream yesterday... 3 years after the breakup... I dreamt of my ex for the 1st time... Gosh.. How come I will dream of him sia... In the dream, I was with a guy... A handsome guy I would say... Very charming.. *ahmcio*... The guy said wanna intro me to his frens... Ok... Dunno why I will agree in the dream also... Anyway... the guy brought me to a country club... And inside the country club there is a pub.. And when he intro me to his frens... I saw him (my ex)...I pretend dunno him... but my ex called me and keep saying things that I cant possibly forget him de... There are some "arguements" between us... He keep insisted his way... and I insisted mine... Then, the guy who brought me to the club, suddenly kissed me on my lips... Can feel the kiss is a long one... Haha... And I was awakened by that kiss... Hmm...

Did major closing today... Super laggy... SAP output super slow... Everything also slow.. So fed up that I decided to print out those contracts tomorrow... Sickening... Every month end closing sure got this problem de... Dunno why sia... Think I rush too much le and din double-check my work also... Cos wanting to meet my dear... Still end up letting my dear wait almost 1 hr for me... Keeping my finger crossed... Hope tomorrow wont have anything wrong... By hook or by crooke... I must reach office early to check my work le...

Met my dear abt 8pm, then we went bugis to have our dinner... Had my favourite... MacDonald's... Haha... After that, went walk walk then go home le... Reached home abt 11pm.. Super shag... Wanted to sleep early de... But dunno why drag until so late... Hmm..

Oh ya... Happy Birthday to my dear's cousin, Guan Fei also...

Happy 22nd birthday Wanting... Hope you enjoy your day today ya... Take care...

Hmm... another fren turn 22 liao... So scary sia.. Eyes blink blink we are turning 22 this yr liao... Hope mine wont come so soon... But then, I think this yr my birthday may be a memorable one... cos my company's D&D falls on my birthday... Haha.. so qiao sia...

Anyone watched Campus Superstar? Haha.. Zhiyang won le... Lol... Though I only catch some parts here and there... And I dun really support anyone... Still I like Zhiyang... Cos he got the boyish look that I like... *Ahmcio*... Anyway dunno wat to write also... Update again next time...

愚人节快乐!!! Happy April's Fool everyone... Hope you wont get fooled by pple... And have fun fooling pple...

Thanks qi... Thank you for your encouragement.. Though it will be quite hard to stay happy... Still I will try... I also dun wan to bring my unhappiness to everyone around me...

Zh, kor, voy and xdd.... Thank you for worrying and concerning for me... Good news for you guys... I decided to give the r/s another chance... I decided to try it one more time... Sorry to make you guys worry le...

*edit*: hey yf... thanks for your concern also... really touched to receive your call... really unexpected sia.. Haha... Thanks... dun worry... I am fine... You take care ya... Every fast will be tuesday liao.. hehe...