is it really wrong to fall in love with someone whose not handsome at all??? though this is not the first time that I heard pple saying abt me us... still I feel hurt inside... especially from frens whom I think are close to me (maybe close in the past ba)... really feel tired and sick when hearing those words... I know my bf does not belong to the good-looking category... some even classified him as below average... I know everyone has different definition of good-looking and average... and I dont deny that my bf dun really look good... but why pple have to say words like 鲜花插在牛粪上... (I am not pretty lor... I see myself as a plain jane that no one will bother to take a 2nd look if they see me on the street... simply becos, there are thousands of girls on the street that look better than me... I am not rich... I dun have licence nor car as well... )

this is really very hurting.. though I dont show out on my face.. and appear that I dont mind... but deep inside my heart... it really pains alot... and I really mind!!!! if pple say behind my back... I dont mind... at least I wont feel the pain...

worse thing is... my bf dun have car license, no car and not rich... this give pple a good chance to say more things abt us... fine... yes.. I admit I complain abt dear not being rich myself as well... but I jus say out in frustrations sometimes... if I really care abt all those.. why bother would I stay with him for so long...I would have left him when he was in ns... and if I really care, I wouldnt even think of starting a relationship with him in the 1st place...

of cos its definitely good to have car license, car and money... but all those are bonus stuff isn't it... yes I am materialistic but I know the difference of loving a man and loving money...

mh even ask me why I like him... my ans to her.. I dunno... I told her this qn is really too difficult for me to ans... cos I dont even know the ans myself... I guess alot of maybes within... maybe I just need someone to help me forget abt the past r/s, and he just appear in time? maybe I am too used to have someone there for me? maybe I wan to show jeremy that even without him, there is another guy who willing to love me? maybe I am deprive of love at that time?

I really dunno why I still fall in love with him despite him being so not good-
looking and poor... does love need any reason? pple always tell me to follow my feelings, follow my heart...so is it wrong for me to do that? is it wrong for me to accept someone that likes me and I have feelings for him as well? is it wrong that he is not born good-looking? is it wrong that he is not born rich?

just becos he is handsome, that's y I love him... just becos he is funny and can make me laugh... that's y I love him... and just becos he is some rich man's son... that's y I love him... when you really love a person.. do you really factors all these when u fall in love? do you really care how he/she looks or how rich he/she is? love is sth explainable right? no? like the saying goes.. love struck when you least expected it to happen...

really upset sia... sometimes I am really afraid to meet up with frens...I am so afraid that they will say the same old things again... and that's y I seldom initiate gatherings/meetups with frens... I rather meet dear or sis or mum... at least I wont hear the things that I dont like and dont wan to hear... and that's also why I nvr bring my bf to meet my frens...

why this world is becoming so shallow? no wonder I am becoming more shallow and materialistic...