is it him at compass pt today? I keep asking myself this qn for the past few hours... I dunno whether is him or not.. looks familiar and yet so unfamiliar to me.. I dont believe a person will aged so much in a few years... and I dont remember he has the habit of not shaving leh... or maybe he has this habit now... he keep looking at me when I walked past him... and the strange thing is.. why do my heart skip a beat when I saw him... hmm.. it can't be him ba... definitly not... he shld have gained some weight now I think...

chatted with lin for alsmot 3 hrs on the phone.. gosh.. long time no chat on the phone for so long liao... can feel the heat on both my ears sia.. I think this is the 1st time in my almost 23 years of life, that I chatted on the phone with lin...

though we are cousins, but we seldom talk on the phone.. we used to be closer when we were very much younger... after entering into adulthood.. everyone seems busy liao... only recent years we get closer again... anyway, that's not impt...

actually have no intention to chat with her de... I just wanna call her and make fun of her cos she ask my sis out and din ask me out.. who knows, we chat and chat non-stop.... and I realized that I feel so much better in my heart... much lighter now... dont ask me what's wrong... I dunno also.. its just the depressed feeling deep within...

we chat abt dreams, our r/s, our work.. and find that we have quite a lot of things in common.. she too, sometimes feel so 空虚 inside her.. but she is braver than me and more optimistic than me... she thinks alot... but she knows when to face the reality... for me... I only know how to live in my dreams...

quote from lin:

"don't get influence by what your frens say, and forget abt the initially reason why you like or fall in love with you bf"... "

becos you love him, becos you treat him like your own family, becos you regard him as a close one, that's why you tend to get angry with him for nth.. cos you know he will be there for you no matter what happen.. you wont treat your frens the same way cos they are just frens... "

it suddenly struck me that maybe I really did take dear for granted... and maybe I shld really try to control my emotions...

somehow in a way, lin taught me alot of life lessons... but I guess I can nvr take things easy...