tot I am well enough to go work... morning woke up feel so giddy... nvm... I told myself that I am ok.. I can go work... somehow my vision so blur.. I think I made a mess of my make-up.. dun care la.. cos late liao..

on the way, keep seeing double.. walked super slow.. even slower than normal speed.. on the train.. 1st time in my life got pple give up seats for me.. one kind lady even ask me whether I am ok... I guess I must have look very sick... the moment reach office (cant sign also.. cos too late liao.. ), joey asked me whether I am not feeling well.. cos my eyes look weird... li hai.. like that also can see..

went bought breakfast and went see doctor again... company's doctor say I lack of rest... yesterday the doctor at my house clinic say I lack of vitamin C... so which one is the correct one.. company doctor automatically give me mc for the day.. and give me lots of medicine... see liao also sian..

clear my work and left office during lunch time.. meet sis for lunch and went home.. the moment reach home, took medicine and went to sleep.. slept for 4hrs.. abt 6pm, received call from dear.. and yet he give me the 'i-dun-believe-you-are-sick' kind of tone...

why is it u always dun believe that I am sick... you can be sick.. I cannot la.. you will only believe when I lie in the hospital bed is it... or when u visit my funeral then you believe.. your mouth say u care for me.. but your actions betray you lor.. you work is important... I know I am not.. everytime I fall sick.. you think I am keng-ing.. yes... I do keng sometimes.. but this time I am really sick lor.. even a stranger in mrt will care abt me.. ask me whether I am ok... my closest bf actually dun believe me at all.. wonder why I can tahan this kind of r/s for so long... why do you always hurt me when I am so sick... if you dun care, then dun call me at all.. I dont need your pity at all... so sick of everything...