everything was so sudden... been so confused and lost for the past week... I am weak.. always trying to escape, avoid, even give up... probably I was too rash le... or maybe a part of me really tired of all the same things that happened over and over again.. anyway its over.. keeping my fingers crossed... hope the same old things wont happen again... its all becos of my willfulness and stubborn-ness that caused both of us to suffer... we are hurt... and I hurt dear more...

probably its fated... if dear did not manage to find me... I guess we are over now... its strange that he can find me everytime... I dunno how he managed to do so... in taiwan also like that... whenever I am too engrossed in seeing things, I will drift away.. but he still managed to find me back... I wonder why...

though everything is fine now... somehow I still feel uneasy... probably I have not get over the turmoil.. a little part of me is glad that dear did not give me up at all.. yes I admit I am too much almost everytime...

managed to talk things out a little... and things gradually back to normal...