恭喜发财!!! 新年快乐!!! 万事如意!!!

somehow feels that cny no longer has meaning to me.. my main purpose is just to collect angbaos nia...

everyone keep asking me "where is your boy boy? is he coming today?"... everyone see me ask the same qn.. I also kinda sianz of repeating myself and see the expression on their face when I told them he is in msia.. even my maternal ah ma also give me a look of "why-u-choose-msian" kind of face... I have to explain in my half-bucket hokkien that dear is actually a singaporean... but I know ah ma sort of "look-down" on dear... haiz.. cos dear has no money, no car, no license... compared to all of my cousins' bf... got money, got car and license... yeah I know shldnt compare.. but tts how the world goes... comparing for improvement...

haiz... sometimes really sick of that... sometimes I also wonder why I will fall in love with a half-msian-half-singaporean.. shld have ask clearly in the beginning sia...

this yr.. dunno why.. I feel extremely lonely.. dear in msia and sis purposely went to work... leave me all alone... feel so much like crying in ah ma hse... those nieces long time no see them... dun even remember me as 表姨 liao.. last yr still got nieces to play with.. this yr... me all alone..

since so lonely, so I decided to go home myself first... on my way back, tried calling dear.. but his cousins keep disturbing.. half way thru, the line was cut off.. kinda pissed off.. pissed off with dear for not initiating call/sms... probably I am too lonely... and dear too occupied with playing.. tts y din even call me back at all... haiz...

think tml I dont wan to go my auntie hse liao.. go there also nobody to talk... rather stay at home and surf net...

sianz.. super duper sianz... sorry for always 发牢骚-ing in my blog.. I know its kinda boring... me myself find my blog more and more boring liao... dun have the mood to maintain blog le..