I think too highly of myself le... always thought that I can influence pple close to me... always thought that the pple close to me can becos of me, give up sth that they like... just becos I dun like it.. I know I am being selfish... that's me.. the cruelty of life cause me to be like that... kinda disappointed... with myself.. with the pple close to me... I thought I have some 分量 in their heart... I thought they can listen to me.. but I was wrong... now then I realize my thoughts, my feelings, my opinions are not impt to them at all... how I feel doesnt really bother them... as long they like it, they want that particular thing... they will just do it, just buy it... now I know how tiny I am in their hearts...

so feel like crying my unhappiness and frustrations out... but can I? I doubt so...