you are as cold as ice... sorry... I dun have the courage to carry you in my hands again... in my mind... keep appearing your image... my heart really aching... it is more painful than when I was dumped 3 years go...

sis and mum dun have the chance to see you for the last time... me and mcp buried you near to your brother... dun worry... not much ants at your side... and I gave you a bigger coffin.... you look really peaceful... though your body stiff and cold... and there is no more red color on your flesh.. your fur still very nice to touch... I wish for miracle when I reach home... how I wish I can see you eating your favourite sunflower seeds... I wish everything I saw in the morning is just a dream... but no... everything is real... you are still lying at the same place where I saw you this morning...

can you hear that? can you hear the sound of my heart breaking? and while writting this blog... my tears flow like tap water... I have to stop blogging many times to wipe off my tears...

that little corner of yours is so empty now... no more you to see when I reach home next time... and no more you playing wheels whenever I clean your cage... no more thinking of what vegetable to give you... everything no more...

may you rest in peace...