today still very tired... restless I would say... but one thing makes me more sianz... lunch time... haole told me he is quitting... I tot he is joking... but its true lor... omg... cant believe it... he's going to be a pilot...starting off as a cadet pilot...of cos everyone of us is happy for him... cos its his dream job... me feel happy for him as well... at least can leave mitsui and pursue his dreams...

so envy... how I wish I can quit as well.. BUT I haven found another job how to quit? haiz... worst is... I dunno what I am looking for in the next job... so lost... everything just dun interest me... suddenly got the urge to study sia... cos search jobs online... mostly prefer diploma in biz/mgmt etc... haiz... so very sianz... me dip in IT... cant do anything... super duper low morale..

finally got my n80... yeah... thanks dear for helping me to find... I appreciate in my heart ok... sometimes certain things not necessary must say out ma... really thanks... today probably me not in good mood... that's why everything seems dead for me... and probably becos of my mood... I feel exceptionally tired...