I need to take a break... emotionally... feel so frustrated about everything... I may seems happy on the outside... but deep within I am not... I am depressed... and I hate to put on a mask in front of other pple but I dont want to affect them... it is a terrible feeling to act happy when I am actually very depressed...

to you... a thousand of apologies... I know I've made you sad and maybe even made you cry... I am tired of myself being like that also... I dont want to hurt you... right now, I dont even have any feelings... the feelings for you seems to be gone... but at the same time I do feel hurt in my heart when I say those words to you...

I dunno what to do... I feel so suffocated... I feel that my life is too boring, too restricted... I really need a break to find back all my feelings and emotions...